everytime i read the title of my last entry
i had to say it out loud
why? cuz i'm weird
and i think it sounds cool
so
in two and a half [ish] hours, i'll be leaving
fucking finally, man
i haven't been out to ct in years
bout goddamn time
oh, and my calc class?
0.0
i am skilled
12/18/07
12/10/07
scharnhorst und gneisenau
been one of those weeks, definitely
haven't gotten a damn thing accomplished
besides working, which doesnt really matter
because you can bust your ass
or just stand around looking stupid
and get done about the same amount
i wonder how long i can stay awake
i have to get up at 9`30 for my calc exam
watching the hours tick past
i've got about 6 1/2 left
very reminiscent of high school
only about a week left
week to eight days
then?
something necessary
and, hopefully, very good for me
haven't gotten a damn thing accomplished
besides working, which doesnt really matter
because you can bust your ass
or just stand around looking stupid
and get done about the same amount
i wonder how long i can stay awake
i have to get up at 9`30 for my calc exam
watching the hours tick past
i've got about 6 1/2 left
very reminiscent of high school
only about a week left
week to eight days
then?
something necessary
and, hopefully, very good for me
12/1/07
rodina
i dont even know where to begin with this
beginning seems like a good place
so here goes
woke up at noon, went to psych
got an awesome lecture by a funny guy
dr caldwell
hope i get him as a prof someday
skipped calc
what else is new
now, about six at night
things begin to go awry:
–six, took a nap, woke up at eight
i dont know why i was that tired,
but i was, and i had a funny conversation with andy about it
–nine, went to work [ciao]
closed with akemi
i thought that would cap off the evening
but i was fucking wrong, apparently
–bout 1, i come back up
there's a sort of powwow in the hallway, and i join in
soon the whole floor's there
some more...happy...than others
happiness being a side-effect of 'lohocla' [as it was put]
and it was quite entertaining
kinda odd, but very funny
and then i went to 7/11 about two
came back, they were still there
dispersed about two thirty
–three o'clock the fire alarm goes off
the fire alarm, again
fucking thing hates us all
so we're standing outside in 15º weather
my roommate, very comfortable
in his coat, beanie, and shorts/flipflops
i'm cold, others are cold
griffin offers that we should go to taco bell
after a bit of goading and tiring of the cold, we set off
taco bell's full, decided to go to insomnia cookies
they were closed
so we [joe, matt, griffin and myself] went to spartan gyros
stayed there till about four
when i remembered:
andy didnt have keys to the room
and i had locked the door
–i get back, he's crashed on bambach's couch
after i unlocked the door
we got him to go back
i thanked bambach
and heard my door lock
and my keys were sitting on my desk
so i got there in time for him to let me in
...
welcome to the mc escher drawing that has been my evening
beginning seems like a good place
so here goes
woke up at noon, went to psych
got an awesome lecture by a funny guy
dr caldwell
hope i get him as a prof someday
skipped calc
what else is new
now, about six at night
things begin to go awry:
–six, took a nap, woke up at eight
i dont know why i was that tired,
but i was, and i had a funny conversation with andy about it
–nine, went to work [ciao]
closed with akemi
i thought that would cap off the evening
but i was fucking wrong, apparently
–bout 1, i come back up
there's a sort of powwow in the hallway, and i join in
soon the whole floor's there
some more...happy...than others
happiness being a side-effect of 'lohocla' [as it was put]
and it was quite entertaining
kinda odd, but very funny
and then i went to 7/11 about two
came back, they were still there
dispersed about two thirty
–three o'clock the fire alarm goes off
the fire alarm, again
fucking thing hates us all
so we're standing outside in 15º weather
my roommate, very comfortable
in his coat, beanie, and shorts/flipflops
i'm cold, others are cold
griffin offers that we should go to taco bell
after a bit of goading and tiring of the cold, we set off
taco bell's full, decided to go to insomnia cookies
they were closed
so we [joe, matt, griffin and myself] went to spartan gyros
stayed there till about four
when i remembered:
andy didnt have keys to the room
and i had locked the door
–i get back, he's crashed on bambach's couch
after i unlocked the door
we got him to go back
i thanked bambach
and heard my door lock
and my keys were sitting on my desk
so i got there in time for him to let me in
...
welcome to the mc escher drawing that has been my evening
11/28/07
gales ferry
it was windier than fuck today
seriously
made my eyes water like crazy
almost blew me into the road at one point
[bout time something blew me]
jesus
and its only 15º right now
so
those who wondered [or cared]
brahms' tragic overture?
not that tragic
but the war requiem?
pretty damn tragic
hard to believe the semester's almost over
just about time to fail my exams
fucking whoo
tomorrow [amendment, today]'s gonna be a fuckin blast
why?
its got its reasons
and plenty of them
seriously
made my eyes water like crazy
almost blew me into the road at one point
[bout time something blew me]
jesus
and its only 15º right now
so
those who wondered [or cared]
brahms' tragic overture?
not that tragic
but the war requiem?
pretty damn tragic
hard to believe the semester's almost over
just about time to fail my exams
fucking whoo
tomorrow [amendment, today]'s gonna be a fuckin blast
why?
its got its reasons
and plenty of them
11/26/07
yabloko
blah blah thanksgiving blah food blah
break blah blah more food
blah blah blah family blah good times
blah blah
there, obligatory break breakdown
its actually snowing outside
not this pansy shit
where there's a light dusting
its actually snowing
fucking finally, man
so
because i dont really feel like writing anything
and i'm sure for those [if any] that read this
they probly get tired of my bitchings
therefor, create your own post for me
make it as depressing, enlightened, irritated, joyous as you wish
some may remember this from about a year and a half ago
[
]
break blah blah more food
blah blah blah family blah good times
blah blah
there, obligatory break breakdown
its actually snowing outside
not this pansy shit
where there's a light dusting
its actually snowing
fucking finally, man
so
because i dont really feel like writing anything
and i'm sure for those [if any] that read this
they probly get tired of my bitchings
therefor, create your own post for me
make it as depressing, enlightened, irritated, joyous as you wish
some may remember this from about a year and a half ago
[
]
11/21/07
gormenghast
we all know the internet is a fuckin weird place
well, its gotten weirder
my evidence?
http://pbelt.com/pbelt_page_three.htm
for those who need the convenience
though i vowed not to complain about work
today is a special rescinding clause of that vow
because:
there was a special dinner tonight
for a select group of people
so special, apparently
they required special serving dishes and dishware
which means, instead of "unbreakable" plastic dishes
they got ceramic dishes and glass plates
....
ceramic and glass
going through our dishroom
it were not a pleasant thing
that and, ryan [a boss] told us
'yeah, drop one of these, and i lose my job'
the hell?
these mustve been some powerful special people
it was grayer than shit today
it hasnt been that bleak in a while
perhaps its a sign,
mostly of the weather every time i have no classes
well, its gotten weirder
my evidence?
http://pbelt.com/pbelt_page_three.htm
for those who need the convenience
though i vowed not to complain about work
today is a special rescinding clause of that vow
because:
there was a special dinner tonight
for a select group of people
so special, apparently
they required special serving dishes and dishware
which means, instead of "unbreakable" plastic dishes
they got ceramic dishes and glass plates
....
ceramic and glass
going through our dishroom
it were not a pleasant thing
that and, ryan [a boss] told us
'yeah, drop one of these, and i lose my job'
the hell?
these mustve been some powerful special people
it was grayer than shit today
it hasnt been that bleak in a while
perhaps its a sign,
mostly of the weather every time i have no classes
11/19/07
house of croÿ
fucking blogger
the last half dozen times i've posted
i've had to log in twice
what the hell, blogger? what the hell
and now,
'things written on napkins and sent down the dishline',
parts II and III
'dear dish room,
why so much guns n roses?
do you hate us?
if so, why? we love you
we appreciate all you do
you're just about the best dish room ever
please tell the music guy to keep it to one gnr a day
[not sweet child of mine]
love,
katie, age 9'
'dear dish room,
if you don't control the music,
please direct this note to whoever does
1 guns 'n' roses song = acceptable
2 [or 5] equates to cruel and unusual punishment
please restrain yourselves [but not with country]
love,
a frequent gallery visitor'
nice to see we illicit such love from our diners
the last half dozen times i've posted
i've had to log in twice
what the hell, blogger? what the hell
and now,
'things written on napkins and sent down the dishline',
parts II and III
'dear dish room,
why so much guns n roses?
do you hate us?
if so, why? we love you
we appreciate all you do
you're just about the best dish room ever
please tell the music guy to keep it to one gnr a day
[not sweet child of mine]
love,
katie, age 9'
'dear dish room,
if you don't control the music,
please direct this note to whoever does
1 guns 'n' roses song = acceptable
2 [or 5] equates to cruel and unusual punishment
please restrain yourselves [but not with country]
love,
a frequent gallery visitor'
nice to see we illicit such love from our diners
11/18/07
drottningholm
i fucking hate blogger
fucking thing keeps trying to write in devanagari
piece of shit
for those few who read this
do not try to understand what follows
because this is me answering my own thoughts
disregard, and keep scrolling
[–because you like feeling it, even though you shouldn't
–you're a masochist
–why the hell do you keep trying? just let it die like its supposed to, and it won't keep trying to come back
–because you're a moron
–you thought it would work, and you're wrong
–don't let him know; he won't care
–earplugs
–quit while you're ahead, or you're going to drive yourself into the ground
–your work ethic is stronger than it should be, thats why, and its too late to go back or quit
–because you're afraid they'll love you back, and it bothers you
–insomnia
–what kind of pussy are you? stop
–cant you make it three more days? the hell's your fortitude?
–forget it]
the football team won today: they beat penn state
going to a bowl game
whoo?
first time since 2003
its something
it was a good game, though
i need thanksgiving to be here
so i can recuperate... and plan
and watch my plans fall through
like they always do
apparently i dont need to meet with my history professor
seems my paper was either
i] excellently done, necessitating only minor revisions, or
ii] moderately done, with straightforward, obvious and copious revisions
guess which one i'm going with
either way, that means i have no classes tuesday
shit a brick
fucking thing keeps trying to write in devanagari
piece of shit
for those few who read this
do not try to understand what follows
because this is me answering my own thoughts
disregard, and keep scrolling
[–because you like feeling it, even though you shouldn't
–you're a masochist
–why the hell do you keep trying? just let it die like its supposed to, and it won't keep trying to come back
–because you're a moron
–you thought it would work, and you're wrong
–don't let him know; he won't care
–earplugs
–quit while you're ahead, or you're going to drive yourself into the ground
–your work ethic is stronger than it should be, thats why, and its too late to go back or quit
–because you're afraid they'll love you back, and it bothers you
–insomnia
–what kind of pussy are you? stop
–cant you make it three more days? the hell's your fortitude?
–forget it]
the football team won today: they beat penn state
going to a bowl game
whoo?
first time since 2003
its something
it was a good game, though
i need thanksgiving to be here
so i can recuperate... and plan
and watch my plans fall through
like they always do
apparently i dont need to meet with my history professor
seems my paper was either
i] excellently done, necessitating only minor revisions, or
ii] moderately done, with straightforward, obvious and copious revisions
guess which one i'm going with
either way, that means i have no classes tuesday
shit a brick
11/16/07
RocoЯ
it would seem
that i no longer have a psychology professor
he was in a car accident wednesday
and he's gonna be out the rest of the semester
which means:
guest lectures
should be a boring time until thanksgiving
one quiz, one oral exam, one meeting
no classes tuesday
work will tuesday
no homework
not gonna have a lot to do
[and a solo audition
more of necessity than desire
not sure anyone else wants it]
time to be boring
that i no longer have a psychology professor
he was in a car accident wednesday
and he's gonna be out the rest of the semester
which means:
guest lectures
should be a boring time until thanksgiving
one quiz, one oral exam, one meeting
no classes tuesday
work will tuesday
no homework
not gonna have a lot to do
[and a solo audition
more of necessity than desire
not sure anyone else wants it]
time to be boring
11/14/07
titanomachий
i fucking hate sad realizations
i was talking to a girl i work with
and she said, in jest [i hope]
'i'd rather listen to arnold [a chef] bitch for half an hour
than listen to you bitch for five minutes'
makes me realize that, not just me
but everyone complains
CONSTANTLY
fucking stupid
it needs to stop
it would seem that my nightmares are back
and let me tell you
this one?
oh, it was great
not only was it incredibly violent
it was confusing, and really disturbing
the unsettled kind of disturbing
it throws a nice wrench in the cog
though, i'll say this
i'd rather wake up fuckin terrified
than wake up fuckin confused
like i usually do
swear to god, dreams are some weird shit
and no, i'm not complaining here
i'm merely informing
for anyone who actually gives a damn
if you dont already know
i have an incredible love for webcomics
i've spent many a long, long night
reading through entire archives of them
and i'm always looking for more to enjoy
if you know any, feel free to tell me
you may just get a hug out of it
the more dr karon tell us about psychiatric medicines
and explanations of what horrid things they do
and the more we learn about how much they dont want to talk to people
instead just giving prescriptions
and not even caring about what happens afterwards
the more i fucking hate the two people i had to see
i hope they rot in hell
i was talking to a girl i work with
and she said, in jest [i hope]
'i'd rather listen to arnold [a chef] bitch for half an hour
than listen to you bitch for five minutes'
makes me realize that, not just me
but everyone complains
CONSTANTLY
fucking stupid
it needs to stop
it would seem that my nightmares are back
and let me tell you
this one?
oh, it was great
not only was it incredibly violent
it was confusing, and really disturbing
the unsettled kind of disturbing
it throws a nice wrench in the cog
though, i'll say this
i'd rather wake up fuckin terrified
than wake up fuckin confused
like i usually do
swear to god, dreams are some weird shit
and no, i'm not complaining here
i'm merely informing
for anyone who actually gives a damn
if you dont already know
i have an incredible love for webcomics
i've spent many a long, long night
reading through entire archives of them
and i'm always looking for more to enjoy
if you know any, feel free to tell me
you may just get a hug out of it
the more dr karon tell us about psychiatric medicines
and explanations of what horrid things they do
and the more we learn about how much they dont want to talk to people
instead just giving prescriptions
and not even caring about what happens afterwards
the more i fucking hate the two people i had to see
i hope they rot in hell
11/12/07
historicizingationliness
why the fuck is it warm again?
i was sweating all night long
i want my damn cold back
this is the third week in a row
i've skipped calc on monday
prehaps a trend has set
at exactly 1`26 last night
i finished my a/b
fuckin thing's 16 pages long
if i dont get a good grade on it
....i dunno
i'll either have a psychotic break
or i'll go on a rampage
...
or i'll just swear a lot
now that i've finally finished that fucking beast
i can catch up on all the psych reading i've put off
which is about 8 chapters
thats gonna be a blast
my russian teacher is still in absentia
dunno if she'll be back for our test tomorrow
regardless
the guy we had today was awesome
i just liked having him
crazy bastard
wonder what the shadower guy thought of it
i was sweating all night long
i want my damn cold back
this is the third week in a row
i've skipped calc on monday
prehaps a trend has set
at exactly 1`26 last night
i finished my a/b
fuckin thing's 16 pages long
if i dont get a good grade on it
....i dunno
i'll either have a psychotic break
or i'll go on a rampage
...
or i'll just swear a lot
now that i've finally finished that fucking beast
i can catch up on all the psych reading i've put off
which is about 8 chapters
thats gonna be a blast
my russian teacher is still in absentia
dunno if she'll be back for our test tomorrow
regardless
the guy we had today was awesome
i just liked having him
crazy bastard
wonder what the shadower guy thought of it
11/11/07
seven bridges of königsberg
only four more sources to find
then only six to write up
and i'm done
apparently
one of the people who lives on my floor
jumped out a third story window tonight
i dunno who it was, or why
but he's obviously in the hospital right now
i didnt even know it had happened until the ambulances showed up
he mustve jumped while i was at 7/11
andy's going to have a shadow the next day or so
i guess its a 'prospective honors college student'
so he's gonna follow him around
apparently learn what its like to be in the h/c
and he's staying here tonight
the catch?
we have no furniture
so unless he brings an inflatable mattress
he's sleeping on the floor
i guess he's also a history major
so why he's shadowing a business major is beyond me
i would pay an exhorbitant amount of money
to never wake up with a migraine ever again
ive had one every day this week
not helping my concentration any
i would love
LOVE
if the loud groups of people who randomly walk by would shut the hell up
i dunno what theyre going on about
but i dont give a damn
and i dont want to hear about it
then only six to write up
and i'm done
apparently
one of the people who lives on my floor
jumped out a third story window tonight
i dunno who it was, or why
but he's obviously in the hospital right now
i didnt even know it had happened until the ambulances showed up
he mustve jumped while i was at 7/11
andy's going to have a shadow the next day or so
i guess its a 'prospective honors college student'
so he's gonna follow him around
apparently learn what its like to be in the h/c
and he's staying here tonight
the catch?
we have no furniture
so unless he brings an inflatable mattress
he's sleeping on the floor
i guess he's also a history major
so why he's shadowing a business major is beyond me
i would pay an exhorbitant amount of money
to never wake up with a migraine ever again
ive had one every day this week
not helping my concentration any
i would love
LOVE
if the loud groups of people who randomly walk by would shut the hell up
i dunno what theyre going on about
but i dont give a damn
and i dont want to hear about it
11/6/07
zsasz
i think my head is trying to mount an insurrection
the last couple days i've woken up with splitting headaches
my excedrin supply is running low
[insert obligatory complaint about a/b]
i was relatively dry when i got back from work today
'relatively' meaning only my pants were wet, below the knees
which is good
usually i'm soaked
i wonder how the election went today
hopefully, for the sake of flint
williamson wasnt reelected
yet somehow, i cant help thinking he was
before i forget, i have a 'potatoe'
from sunday, so forgive the lateness:
i'm working at ciao
trying to get through a line of about ten people
some girl was asking about what kinds of cheese we had
i told her what they were (mozzarella, swiss, monterey jack and american)
and she says
swear to god
'what, y'all ain't got no canadian cheese?'
...
как ты сказал?
the last couple days i've woken up with splitting headaches
my excedrin supply is running low
[insert obligatory complaint about a/b]
i was relatively dry when i got back from work today
'relatively' meaning only my pants were wet, below the knees
which is good
usually i'm soaked
i wonder how the election went today
hopefully, for the sake of flint
williamson wasnt reelected
yet somehow, i cant help thinking he was
before i forget, i have a 'potatoe'
from sunday, so forgive the lateness:
i'm working at ciao
trying to get through a line of about ten people
some girl was asking about what kinds of cheese we had
i told her what they were (mozzarella, swiss, monterey jack and american)
and she says
swear to god
'what, y'all ain't got no canadian cheese?'
...
как ты сказал?
11/4/07
ajaxian
fair salamis, the billows’ roar,
wander around thee yet,
and sailors gaze upon thy shore
firm in the ocean set.
thy son is in a foreign clime
where ida feeds her countless flocks,
far from thy dear, remembered rocks,
worn by the waste of time–
comfortless, nameless, hopeless save
in the dark prospect of the yawning grave....
woe to the mother in her close of day,
woe to her desolate heart and temples gray,
when she shall hear
her loved one’s story whispered in her ear!
“woe, woe!’ will be the cry–
no quiet murmur like the tremulous wail
of the lone bird, the querulous nightingale–
wander around thee yet,
and sailors gaze upon thy shore
firm in the ocean set.
thy son is in a foreign clime
where ida feeds her countless flocks,
far from thy dear, remembered rocks,
worn by the waste of time–
comfortless, nameless, hopeless save
in the dark prospect of the yawning grave....
woe to the mother in her close of day,
woe to her desolate heart and temples gray,
when she shall hear
her loved one’s story whispered in her ear!
“woe, woe!’ will be the cry–
no quiet murmur like the tremulous wail
of the lone bird, the querulous nightingale–
11/3/07
sparty the weasel
tomorrow:
dorm's gonna be locked down
all of them will be
crazy shit's gonna be going on
its going to be loud, obnoxious, and distracting
the way it ought to be for good football games
but here's hoping i manage to get something done tomorrow
sometimes i really despise the internet
so much distraction
aim, facebook, blogs, webcomics, wikipedia, random shit
doesnt help my procrastination any
or my insomnia
there was a huge group of people today in the caf
all came in at once
we got slammed for a good twenty minutes
apparently they all came from the basketball game
why did they always have to come here?
dorm's gonna be locked down
all of them will be
crazy shit's gonna be going on
its going to be loud, obnoxious, and distracting
the way it ought to be for good football games
but here's hoping i manage to get something done tomorrow
sometimes i really despise the internet
so much distraction
aim, facebook, blogs, webcomics, wikipedia, random shit
doesnt help my procrastination any
or my insomnia
there was a huge group of people today in the caf
all came in at once
we got slammed for a good twenty minutes
apparently they all came from the basketball game
why did they always have to come here?
11/2/07
khristobel
honest to christ
i wasted the last nine hours doing nothing
when i couldve already finished part II of my a/b
fucking ridiculous
i hate when i do it
its a never ending cycle
i would love to just curl up in a corner
draw a blanket around me
and be completely unnoticed
completely
no one aiming me at two in the morning
no one telling me things i dont care about
just being alone
...wont happen
but i can try
its going to be a long goddamn weekend
i wasted the last nine hours doing nothing
when i couldve already finished part II of my a/b
fucking ridiculous
i hate when i do it
its a never ending cycle
i would love to just curl up in a corner
draw a blanket around me
and be completely unnoticed
completely
no one aiming me at two in the morning
no one telling me things i dont care about
just being alone
...wont happen
but i can try
its going to be a long goddamn weekend
10/31/07
wolfsschanze
the people at apple fucking sabotaged my computer
ive never had a problem with safari or any of my other apps continually freezing
or having finder have to reset itself
since i've updated to tiger
safari's frozen about a dozen times
system preferences has frozen five times
fucking adium crashed twice
and finder froze and had to be reset TWICE
i'd only ever had finder twice on me before
what the fuck, apple? what the fuck?
christ
you'd think i'd have gotten vista
apparently
i wont be going to history for about three weeks
next three weeks comprise of
turning in the a/b and personal meetings with dr thomas
i'd say i got off easy
but i still have four parts of an a/b to do
which is gonna suck
god
for some reason i still have 'fame' on my itunes
which is now rectified and deleted
christ i hate/d doing that show
and i wasnt even in it
no, i didnt mind the people who were in it
some, actually most were friends of mine
but god that show fuckin sucked
if anyone who was in that reads this
dont argue with me about it
you may have had acting it
but it was a technical/managerial/logisitical nightmare
this is an email i got from one of my bosses
regarding tomorrow at work:
"Happy Halloween! If you chose you may dress up for Halloween. HOWEVER,
your costume must be appropriate and follow the dress code. You will be
sent home to change if you are not dressed appropriately. If you
question if you should wear something then chances are you should not!
Your costume cannot be offensive, you still must wear a hat or a
hairnet, long hair must be pulled back, you must wear closed toed &
heeled rubber soled shoes (NO HIGH HEELS or PLATFORM SHOES, this is for
your safety), you must have long pants, a shirt with sleeves, and your
nametag! "
...
that pretty much rules out 90% of the costumes people have
which means tomorrow will be boring as fuck
and i just remembered i dont work tomorrow
which means?
i dont care
ive never had a problem with safari or any of my other apps continually freezing
or having finder have to reset itself
since i've updated to tiger
safari's frozen about a dozen times
system preferences has frozen five times
fucking adium crashed twice
and finder froze and had to be reset TWICE
i'd only ever had finder twice on me before
what the fuck, apple? what the fuck?
christ
you'd think i'd have gotten vista
apparently
i wont be going to history for about three weeks
next three weeks comprise of
turning in the a/b and personal meetings with dr thomas
i'd say i got off easy
but i still have four parts of an a/b to do
which is gonna suck
god
for some reason i still have 'fame' on my itunes
which is now rectified and deleted
christ i hate/d doing that show
and i wasnt even in it
no, i didnt mind the people who were in it
some, actually most were friends of mine
but god that show fuckin sucked
if anyone who was in that reads this
dont argue with me about it
you may have had acting it
but it was a technical/managerial/logisitical nightmare
this is an email i got from one of my bosses
regarding tomorrow at work:
"Happy Halloween! If you chose you may dress up for Halloween. HOWEVER,
your costume must be appropriate and follow the dress code. You will be
sent home to change if you are not dressed appropriately. If you
question if you should wear something then chances are you should not!
Your costume cannot be offensive, you still must wear a hat or a
hairnet, long hair must be pulled back, you must wear closed toed &
heeled rubber soled shoes (NO HIGH HEELS or PLATFORM SHOES, this is for
your safety), you must have long pants, a shirt with sleeves, and your
nametag! "
...
that pretty much rules out 90% of the costumes people have
which means tomorrow will be boring as fuck
and i just remembered i dont work tomorrow
which means?
i dont care
nacht
sure on this shining night
of starmade shadows round
kindness must watch for me
this side the ground
the late year lies down the north
all is healed, all is health
high summer holds the earth
hearts all whole
sure on this shining night
i weep for wonder
wand'ring far alone
of shadows on the stars
of starmade shadows round
kindness must watch for me
this side the ground
the late year lies down the north
all is healed, all is health
high summer holds the earth
hearts all whole
sure on this shining night
i weep for wonder
wand'ring far alone
of shadows on the stars
10/26/07
zytglogge
i have nothing to say
i dont even have something to b/s about
i could complain about something
but i've done that to death
and have no new complaints
god i'm pathetic
i need sleep
i dont even have something to b/s about
i could complain about something
but i've done that to death
and have no new complaints
god i'm pathetic
i need sleep
10/24/07
ænima
the week over yet?
two tests? done
average grade? ~80 [±3]
plans for weekend? none
why? because i need a fucking break
one of many things i do not get
is when someone sends you a message online
through myspace/facebook/whatever
and they sign their name at the end
how stupid is that
i already know how sent it to me
because it says
'you have one message from _____'
remember that, people
i need food
and sleep
and random things
anyone want to contribute?
two tests? done
average grade? ~80 [±3]
plans for weekend? none
why? because i need a fucking break
one of many things i do not get
is when someone sends you a message online
through myspace/facebook/whatever
and they sign their name at the end
how stupid is that
i already know how sent it to me
because it says
'you have one message from _____'
remember that, people
i need food
and sleep
and random things
anyone want to contribute?
10/23/07
ненавижу
three hours later
a/b done
fucking encyclopædias
i just want a nice highway near here
so i can throw myself off an overpass onto it
christ
can i not get a break?
i should not be allowed to interact socially with others
bad things will always happen
guaranteed
dont want to take my russian test
dont want to take my psych test
dont want to fail at college
dont want to keep losing money
dont want to sleep
dont want to stay here
the list goes on forever
a/b done
fucking encyclopædias
i just want a nice highway near here
so i can throw myself off an overpass onto it
christ
can i not get a break?
i should not be allowed to interact socially with others
bad things will always happen
guaranteed
dont want to take my russian test
dont want to take my psych test
dont want to fail at college
dont want to keep losing money
dont want to sleep
dont want to stay here
the list goes on forever
10/22/07
nine songs
this is a conversation i had with someone a few days back
honestly
it was one of the more bizarre i've had lately
17`50 [person] hey how was work?
17`57 [me] uneventful
18`07 [person] why
18`10 [me] because nothing happened?
18`10 [me] just served sandwiches for three hours
18`11 [person] what were you expecting to happen?
18`11 [me] nothing
18`12 [person] well then why sound so dissapointed
18`12 [me] i'm not
18`12 [person] it sounded like you were
18`12 [me] nope
18`12 [me] i dont really care one way or the other
18`12 [person] ok
18`12 [me] since that shift is usually boring
18`13 [person] so you are used to it
18`14 [me] ...yeah
then later, after talking about concerts we both have
18`25 [person] when are your concerts
18`28 [me] only one
18`28 [me] in december
18`28 [person] what date
18`28 [person] and time
18`28 [me] dunno
18`28 [me] and dunno
18`28 [person] how dont you know
18`29 [me] because i dont remember
18`30 [me] and i dont have the sheet with me that says when it is
18`30 [person] oh
18`30 [person] where is the sheet
18`31 [me] i...dont...know
18`31 [me] thus not having it
18`31 [person] oh
obviously, said person wasnt operating on all wavelengths that night
so
after long and dubious consideration
...thats a complete lie
after having the thought briefly cross my mind
i'm not going to complain about work anymore
since its really not as bad as i first thought
i guess its jaded me
i dont think my emotions have clocked in lately
ive felt very neutral for the past couple days
not that i mind
the last thing i need is emotional contingencies
god those fuckers get in the way
maybe if i bribe them enough
they'll stay away
before i forget, we have multiple 'potatoes':
today's potatoes are my coworkers who worked dishroom tonight
i was supposed to close at ciao [grinders/pizza] tonight
but, because there was only one person closing in dish
i volunteered to go back and help them
so i go back and do the pots and pans
i told the girl who was rinsing/loading to put the hoods from brimstone [burgers] through twice
and i get this blank stare like i was speaking greek
'you know, after they go through once, the girl will bring them back; put them through again'
'ooooooooh'
...
and the girl who was unloading
i swear to christ
you'd think she'd never had an independent thought
'what should i do now?'
'what needs to be done now?'
'how much is left to do?'
truly a wonder
which is why we didnt leave until 1`45 tonight
jesus
honestly
it was one of the more bizarre i've had lately
17`50 [person] hey how was work?
17`57 [me] uneventful
18`07 [person] why
18`10 [me] because nothing happened?
18`10 [me] just served sandwiches for three hours
18`11 [person] what were you expecting to happen?
18`11 [me] nothing
18`12 [person] well then why sound so dissapointed
18`12 [me] i'm not
18`12 [person] it sounded like you were
18`12 [me] nope
18`12 [me] i dont really care one way or the other
18`12 [person] ok
18`12 [me] since that shift is usually boring
18`13 [person] so you are used to it
18`14 [me] ...yeah
then later, after talking about concerts we both have
18`25 [person] when are your concerts
18`28 [me] only one
18`28 [me] in december
18`28 [person] what date
18`28 [person] and time
18`28 [me] dunno
18`28 [me] and dunno
18`28 [person] how dont you know
18`29 [me] because i dont remember
18`30 [me] and i dont have the sheet with me that says when it is
18`30 [person] oh
18`30 [person] where is the sheet
18`31 [me] i...dont...know
18`31 [me] thus not having it
18`31 [person] oh
obviously, said person wasnt operating on all wavelengths that night
so
after long and dubious consideration
...thats a complete lie
after having the thought briefly cross my mind
i'm not going to complain about work anymore
since its really not as bad as i first thought
i guess its jaded me
i dont think my emotions have clocked in lately
ive felt very neutral for the past couple days
not that i mind
the last thing i need is emotional contingencies
god those fuckers get in the way
maybe if i bribe them enough
they'll stay away
before i forget, we have multiple 'potatoes':
today's potatoes are my coworkers who worked dishroom tonight
i was supposed to close at ciao [grinders/pizza] tonight
but, because there was only one person closing in dish
i volunteered to go back and help them
so i go back and do the pots and pans
i told the girl who was rinsing/loading to put the hoods from brimstone [burgers] through twice
and i get this blank stare like i was speaking greek
'you know, after they go through once, the girl will bring them back; put them through again'
'ooooooooh'
...
and the girl who was unloading
i swear to christ
you'd think she'd never had an independent thought
'what should i do now?'
'what needs to be done now?'
'how much is left to do?'
truly a wonder
which is why we didnt leave until 1`45 tonight
jesus
10/21/07
смерть шпионам
canto para matar una culebra
¡mayombé-bombé-mayombé!
¡mayombé-bombé-mayombé!
¡mayombé-bombé-mayombé!
la culebra tiene los ojos de vidrio
la culebra viene y se enreda en un palo
con sus ojos de vidrio, en un palo
con sus ojos do vidrio
la culebra camina sin patas
la culebra se esconde en la yerba
caminando se esconde en la yerba
caminando sin patas
tú le das con el hacha, y se muere
¡dale ya!
¡no le des con el pie, que te muerde
no le des con el pie, que se va!
sensemayá, la culebra
sensemayá,
sensemayá, con sus ojos
sensemayá
sensemayá, con su lengua
sensemayá
sensemayá, con su boca
sensemayá...
¡la culebra muerta no puede comer
la culebra muerta no puede silbar
no puede caminar
no puede correr!
¡la culebra muerta no puede mirar
la culebra muerta no puede beber
no puede respirar
no puede morder!
¡mayombé-bombé-mayombé!
sensemayá, la culebra...
¡mayombé-bombé-mayombé!
sensemayá, no se mueve...
¡mayombé-bombé-mayombé!
sensemayá, za culebra...
¡mayombé-bombé-mayombé!
¡sensemayá, se murió!
¡mayombé-bombé-mayombé!
¡mayombé-bombé-mayombé!
¡mayombé-bombé-mayombé!
la culebra tiene los ojos de vidrio
la culebra viene y se enreda en un palo
con sus ojos de vidrio, en un palo
con sus ojos do vidrio
la culebra camina sin patas
la culebra se esconde en la yerba
caminando se esconde en la yerba
caminando sin patas
tú le das con el hacha, y se muere
¡dale ya!
¡no le des con el pie, que te muerde
no le des con el pie, que se va!
sensemayá, la culebra
sensemayá,
sensemayá, con sus ojos
sensemayá
sensemayá, con su lengua
sensemayá
sensemayá, con su boca
sensemayá...
¡la culebra muerta no puede comer
la culebra muerta no puede silbar
no puede caminar
no puede correr!
¡la culebra muerta no puede mirar
la culebra muerta no puede beber
no puede respirar
no puede morder!
¡mayombé-bombé-mayombé!
sensemayá, la culebra...
¡mayombé-bombé-mayombé!
sensemayá, no se mueve...
¡mayombé-bombé-mayombé!
sensemayá, za culebra...
¡mayombé-bombé-mayombé!
¡sensemayá, se murió!
10/20/07
larrys creek
fucking internet was out last night
bitches
but its back now, obviously
so
lots of tornados thursday night
lots of rain
both of which were not here
there were lots of evacuations though
none of which i went to
screw that
if we're all going to die
from some superstorm
i at least want to see it happen
i'm going to be living at the library this weekend
damn annotated bibliography
though its better than another paper
i should know better than to put it off that long
and i do
but i do it anyway
joe paterno is the best coach ever
at the end of the half interview, his guy asked him
'coach, why were you so able to dominate the second quarter?'
paterno replies
'how should i know? i don't know. football games are up and down. we do what we can'
how awesome is that?
bitches
but its back now, obviously
so
lots of tornados thursday night
lots of rain
both of which were not here
there were lots of evacuations though
none of which i went to
screw that
if we're all going to die
from some superstorm
i at least want to see it happen
i'm going to be living at the library this weekend
damn annotated bibliography
though its better than another paper
i should know better than to put it off that long
and i do
but i do it anyway
joe paterno is the best coach ever
at the end of the half interview, his guy asked him
'coach, why were you so able to dominate the second quarter?'
paterno replies
'how should i know? i don't know. football games are up and down. we do what we can'
how awesome is that?
10/17/07
mer de noms
i was in history today
listening to people talk about 90s tv shows and their plans for the weekend
and i wondered how most people in that class know each other
and then i remembered
other people are actually social
i've been listening to too much classical music
i have so much metallica/godsmack/apc/creed/led zeppelin
and its just sitting there on my ipod
unlistened to, feeling dejected
i must rectify that
how the hell is it already fucking wednesday
god only knows
at least i dont work today
i've been getting to sleep earlier than normal
my normal, not most people's normal
my normal is 2`30-3
past couple of nights i've clocked out about 1, 1`30
maybe its a sign
a sign that maybe, just maybe
my sleep cycle is returning
and all will right itself in my world
and my life will be happy and joyous once again
yeah right
listening to people talk about 90s tv shows and their plans for the weekend
and i wondered how most people in that class know each other
and then i remembered
other people are actually social
i've been listening to too much classical music
i have so much metallica/godsmack/apc/creed/led zeppelin
and its just sitting there on my ipod
unlistened to, feeling dejected
i must rectify that
how the hell is it already fucking wednesday
god only knows
at least i dont work today
i've been getting to sleep earlier than normal
my normal, not most people's normal
my normal is 2`30-3
past couple of nights i've clocked out about 1, 1`30
maybe its a sign
a sign that maybe, just maybe
my sleep cycle is returning
and all will right itself in my world
and my life will be happy and joyous once again
yeah right
10/15/07
спасение
so
i was going to put some sort of lyrics here
something appropriate for my mood
but i cant find any
because, at the moment
i feel completely neutral
i shouldnt, god knows
i should either be good from seeing my family
or horrid considering my paper's due tuesday
but i'm not
fuckin weird, man
considering my roommate has yet to return
i'm assuming he'll be back tomorrow morning
hopefully not early
cuz i'm gonna be up late
and i want to sleep in
and i really hope there wasnt russian homework
because i did not do it
perhaps this is what nirvana feels like
or, perhaps
i have descended into such an abyss of apathy so deep
no cares, worries, fears, or frustrations can reach me
either that, or i'm blissfully numb
either way, it works for me
probly gonna be hell in the morning
i actually brought books back with me from home
i WILL read them before i go home for christmas
i must
i havent read in too damn long
i miss it
the comforting eloquence
witty banter
intrinsic insights
mysterious, intellectual characters
just the ability to read
christ, i sound pathetic
why i'm still awake, i dont know
i went to bed at six am last night
and got up at 10`45
i should be passed out right now
but, thats not how i work
i'll make up for it...thursday
some time besides now
i was going to put some sort of lyrics here
something appropriate for my mood
but i cant find any
because, at the moment
i feel completely neutral
i shouldnt, god knows
i should either be good from seeing my family
or horrid considering my paper's due tuesday
but i'm not
fuckin weird, man
considering my roommate has yet to return
i'm assuming he'll be back tomorrow morning
hopefully not early
cuz i'm gonna be up late
and i want to sleep in
and i really hope there wasnt russian homework
because i did not do it
perhaps this is what nirvana feels like
or, perhaps
i have descended into such an abyss of apathy so deep
no cares, worries, fears, or frustrations can reach me
either that, or i'm blissfully numb
either way, it works for me
probly gonna be hell in the morning
i actually brought books back with me from home
i WILL read them before i go home for christmas
i must
i havent read in too damn long
i miss it
the comforting eloquence
witty banter
intrinsic insights
mysterious, intellectual characters
just the ability to read
christ, i sound pathetic
why i'm still awake, i dont know
i went to bed at six am last night
and got up at 10`45
i should be passed out right now
but, thats not how i work
i'll make up for it...thursday
some time besides now
10/11/07
baryonyx
i have come to the conclusion
that most, if not all of the girls i know, are blind
either that, or their completely delusional
because the amount of them that start liking me is ridiculous
i do not understand it,
nor will i ever
i'm not an attractive person
in ANY aspect
so stop it
i have yet to finish this rough draft
it will be done tonight
or i will kill something
i has nothing else to say
that most, if not all of the girls i know, are blind
either that, or their completely delusional
because the amount of them that start liking me is ridiculous
i do not understand it,
nor will i ever
i'm not an attractive person
in ANY aspect
so stop it
i have yet to finish this rough draft
it will be done tonight
or i will kill something
i has nothing else to say
10/9/07
bronck's
it happens to everyone
while listening to a certain song or cd
you do something
that you forever associate with that song/cd
after going through my ipod
i listened to the 'rush' soundtrack
and immediately remembered playing wolfenstein
lo those many years ago
probly about 6 or 7
with my hand being cut and all
i asked not to work in the dishroom
but they were shortstaffed
so i unloaded
which is fine, i guess
then people up front started leaving
and they started falling behind
so i had to go up and help them
and now half of hand is numb
fuck
apparently
my russian prof wants to meet with me
and talk about my test
and how i'm doing in the class
she says i'm doing fine
obviously not
and i'm going to end this before i complain more
...
i cant believe its before midnight
6 more minutes, but
still early for me
while listening to a certain song or cd
you do something
that you forever associate with that song/cd
after going through my ipod
i listened to the 'rush' soundtrack
and immediately remembered playing wolfenstein
lo those many years ago
probly about 6 or 7
with my hand being cut and all
i asked not to work in the dishroom
but they were shortstaffed
so i unloaded
which is fine, i guess
then people up front started leaving
and they started falling behind
so i had to go up and help them
and now half of hand is numb
fuck
apparently
my russian prof wants to meet with me
and talk about my test
and how i'm doing in the class
she says i'm doing fine
obviously not
and i'm going to end this before i complain more
...
i cant believe its before midnight
6 more minutes, but
still early for me
10/8/07
solipsism
'dear dishroom:
roses are red
violets are blue
this napkin is sweet
and so are you' [written on a napkin]
someone actually sent that down the dishline
i think it was last monday
i just uncovered it
it was buried under the shit on my desk
i just thought it was awesome
there were things i was going to say
but my mind completely blanked
damn
my roommate didnt come back today
so,
he's either dead, vanished,
or coming back tomorrow
jury's still out on that, results pending
if my sinuses do'nt decongest
i'm going to kill someone/something
same thing goes for my hand
small cut, stings like a gaping wound
roses are red
violets are blue
this napkin is sweet
and so are you' [written on a napkin]
someone actually sent that down the dishline
i think it was last monday
i just uncovered it
it was buried under the shit on my desk
i just thought it was awesome
there were things i was going to say
but my mind completely blanked
damn
my roommate didnt come back today
so,
he's either dead, vanished,
or coming back tomorrow
jury's still out on that, results pending
if my sinuses do'nt decongest
i'm going to kill someone/something
same thing goes for my hand
small cut, stings like a gaping wound
10/7/07
mannosyl
i finally got tiger installed on this fucker
and finally got all my music on my ipod
i can finally listen to all the shit on there again
fuckin finally
jesus
my getting tiger [mac os 10.4] is just a little bit of history repeating
[back rub prize for the person who guess who sings that song]
because
back when tiger was due to launch
like leopard [10.5] is now
my dad bought panther [10.3] for me
and about three/four weeks later, tiger came out
so now, much like then
i'll be on the technological cusp for about a month
until the summer when i finally get a macbook
and get leopard on that
the bitterest girl on earth [known to some as emily]
was extra bitter tonight
possibly because sherfy was there
or possibly because its 'that time'
either way
she was pretty fucking bitter
without getting into details
i have much shit to do today
cuz i put it off to watch state lose again [to northwestern {?!}]
and then watch two obscure teams play [towson and u of richmond]
and play a much more exciting, interesting game
let me tell you what
towson won their game on a touchdown pass
with 00`00 left on the clock
pretty fuckin awesome
then i watched ohio state play minnesota in volleyball
well, not really watched
it was on in the background
i didnt even realize it was on till i actually looked back at the tv
but, i wont have those distractions
i'm becoming/have become sort of disenchanted with the nfl
dont get me wrong
there will always be a diehard steeler fan in me, ALWAYS
but, nfl football just isnt as intense as college football
at least, not to me
not quite as exciting
maybe because i'm tired of hearing about the fucking lions
ALL THE DAMN TIME
no one likes them, they'll always suck
get used to it
that being said
afc central, let's kick some ass
and finally got all my music on my ipod
i can finally listen to all the shit on there again
fuckin finally
jesus
my getting tiger [mac os 10.4] is just a little bit of history repeating
[back rub prize for the person who guess who sings that song]
because
back when tiger was due to launch
like leopard [10.5] is now
my dad bought panther [10.3] for me
and about three/four weeks later, tiger came out
so now, much like then
i'll be on the technological cusp for about a month
until the summer when i finally get a macbook
and get leopard on that
the bitterest girl on earth [known to some as emily]
was extra bitter tonight
possibly because sherfy was there
or possibly because its 'that time'
either way
she was pretty fucking bitter
without getting into details
i have much shit to do today
cuz i put it off to watch state lose again [to northwestern {?!}]
and then watch two obscure teams play [towson and u of richmond]
and play a much more exciting, interesting game
let me tell you what
towson won their game on a touchdown pass
with 00`00 left on the clock
pretty fuckin awesome
then i watched ohio state play minnesota in volleyball
well, not really watched
it was on in the background
i didnt even realize it was on till i actually looked back at the tv
but, i wont have those distractions
i'm becoming/have become sort of disenchanted with the nfl
dont get me wrong
there will always be a diehard steeler fan in me, ALWAYS
but, nfl football just isnt as intense as college football
at least, not to me
not quite as exciting
maybe because i'm tired of hearing about the fucking lions
ALL THE DAMN TIME
no one likes them, they'll always suck
get used to it
that being said
afc central, let's kick some ass
10/5/07
inversion
among other bizarre things about me
is my compulsion to use '¡' when i exclaim something
[¡by the flaming ham of xerxes!]
i dont know why
since i practically despise spanish
yet enjoy using that upside down mark
i dont use the '¿' though
why? because its stupid
welcome to the inanity that is my logic
at this moment i have a gin blossoms song running through my head
which is, while incredibly annoying, fucking sweet
because i love the gin blossoms
and the 90s was just an awesome decade
when most of my favorite music was made
which means
in about ten years
i'm going to be listening to a mix cd/playlist/whatever
with other people around
and their going to say
'how can you listen to that crap? it sucks. 90s music sucks'
and i'll say 'i'm a child of the 90s. i grew up listening to this'
and i'll be in exactly the same situation
that 80s children are in now
the only difference?
more good music came from the 90s than the 80s
while the convenience is a plus
i really want a better job than the gallery
its alright work
but it gets monotonous real damn quick
and i want to make more than minimum wage
but, considering my initiative
i'm probly just talking out my ass right now
its 83º right now
on october fifth
...
under NO circumstances
should it EVER be above 75º in october
EVER
this WRONG
WRONG WRONG
not right
is my compulsion to use '¡' when i exclaim something
[¡by the flaming ham of xerxes!]
i dont know why
since i practically despise spanish
yet enjoy using that upside down mark
i dont use the '¿' though
why? because its stupid
welcome to the inanity that is my logic
at this moment i have a gin blossoms song running through my head
which is, while incredibly annoying, fucking sweet
because i love the gin blossoms
and the 90s was just an awesome decade
when most of my favorite music was made
which means
in about ten years
i'm going to be listening to a mix cd/playlist/whatever
with other people around
and their going to say
'how can you listen to that crap? it sucks. 90s music sucks'
and i'll say 'i'm a child of the 90s. i grew up listening to this'
and i'll be in exactly the same situation
that 80s children are in now
the only difference?
more good music came from the 90s than the 80s
while the convenience is a plus
i really want a better job than the gallery
its alright work
but it gets monotonous real damn quick
and i want to make more than minimum wage
but, considering my initiative
i'm probly just talking out my ass right now
its 83º right now
on october fifth
...
under NO circumstances
should it EVER be above 75º in october
EVER
this WRONG
WRONG WRONG
not right
10/3/07
devanagari
i was at 7/11
buying some cokes for emily and i
and i overheard these two guys talking about gum
and one guy was bitching about the ingredients
and said
"man, everyone's got pomegranate in their stuff now
pomegranate's like the new ketchup"
bizarre? yes
stupid? check
you know
since i spend every wednesday at emily's
i wonder what my roommate does while i'm gone
i should ask him sometime
though, if i was to wager a guess
i'd say he probly watches smallville
maybe does homework if he has any
and, just maybe
naughty naughty things
like orgies with five women
covered in peanut oil, with one brandishing a large trout
...ok, maybe that last part was my imagination
but still, i can hope
it seems i havent posted a 'potatoe' in a while
so i'm going to now:
today's 'potatoe'
is a very intelligent individual
one who
though he can sometimes be well motivated
tends to skip class
so he skipped two classes in a row
and then went to class the day of a quiz
but didnt study
so
he went to class expecting an easy quiz
but, it was ridiculously difficult
becuase it covered the chain rule
and this person hates the chain rule
and all it stands for
so he likely failed the test completely
the individual? me
the class? calc
the result? FAIL
i
am going to seek solace in cap'n
yarrrrrrrrr
buying some cokes for emily and i
and i overheard these two guys talking about gum
and one guy was bitching about the ingredients
and said
"man, everyone's got pomegranate in their stuff now
pomegranate's like the new ketchup"
bizarre? yes
stupid? check
you know
since i spend every wednesday at emily's
i wonder what my roommate does while i'm gone
i should ask him sometime
though, if i was to wager a guess
i'd say he probly watches smallville
maybe does homework if he has any
and, just maybe
naughty naughty things
like orgies with five women
covered in peanut oil, with one brandishing a large trout
...ok, maybe that last part was my imagination
but still, i can hope
it seems i havent posted a 'potatoe' in a while
so i'm going to now:
today's 'potatoe'
is a very intelligent individual
one who
though he can sometimes be well motivated
tends to skip class
so he skipped two classes in a row
and then went to class the day of a quiz
but didnt study
so
he went to class expecting an easy quiz
but, it was ridiculously difficult
becuase it covered the chain rule
and this person hates the chain rule
and all it stands for
so he likely failed the test completely
the individual? me
the class? calc
the result? FAIL
i
am going to seek solace in cap'n
yarrrrrrrrr
gothloli
test in russian tomorrow
so i'll try to be brief
i actually wasnt not looking forward to history today
maybe it was because thomas didnt actually assign anything
other than to read
and i have two weeks to write my paper on nasaw
which means i have plenty of time to stress
....in two weekends from now, when i still havent done it
for some reason
every time i dont look forward to dishroom on tuesday
it usually isnt that bad
its never great, obviously
but it actually wasnt deplorable today
i even did pots and pans today
and it wasnt that bad
at least i have tomorrow off
speaking of tomorrow
i really have to go to calc
because i havent since last wednesday
and i have a quiz on something or other
i dont even know what this chapter's about
weather.com says itll be mid 80s over the weekend
if it is
i will kill something/someone
it should NEVER
under ANY circumstances
be 80º in october
EVER
so, in light of that
i'll make my own damn forecast:
cloudy, possible catastrophic thunderstorms
highs near 70º
weekend: dreary, maybe sunny [likely not]
so i'll try to be brief
i actually wasnt not looking forward to history today
maybe it was because thomas didnt actually assign anything
other than to read
and i have two weeks to write my paper on nasaw
which means i have plenty of time to stress
....in two weekends from now, when i still havent done it
for some reason
every time i dont look forward to dishroom on tuesday
it usually isnt that bad
its never great, obviously
but it actually wasnt deplorable today
i even did pots and pans today
and it wasnt that bad
at least i have tomorrow off
speaking of tomorrow
i really have to go to calc
because i havent since last wednesday
and i have a quiz on something or other
i dont even know what this chapter's about
weather.com says itll be mid 80s over the weekend
if it is
i will kill something/someone
it should NEVER
under ANY circumstances
be 80º in october
EVER
so, in light of that
i'll make my own damn forecast:
cloudy, possible catastrophic thunderstorms
highs near 70º
weekend: dreary, maybe sunny [likely not]
10/1/07
albuquerque
apparently, this is my death:
ben tagg: At age 37 you will die fighting the Global War on Terrorism in Canada.
apparently, there's much terrorism in canada
and i shall FIGHT IT with my AWESOME SKILLS
though, those damn terrorists will eventually kill me
oh well, so i goes
ok
i realize that,
if you walk somewhere
you'll never go as fast as someone on a bike
but
that doesnt mean you should walk as slow as possible
christ
there are whole herds of people
who walk like they're sloths
big groups of people
who block the entire sidewalk
makes me want to kick a puppy
i may actually go to calc today
maybe
if i want to
and if theres anything important
...or not
ben tagg: At age 37 you will die fighting the Global War on Terrorism in Canada.
apparently, there's much terrorism in canada
and i shall FIGHT IT with my AWESOME SKILLS
though, those damn terrorists will eventually kill me
oh well, so i goes
ok
i realize that,
if you walk somewhere
you'll never go as fast as someone on a bike
but
that doesnt mean you should walk as slow as possible
christ
there are whole herds of people
who walk like they're sloths
big groups of people
who block the entire sidewalk
makes me want to kick a puppy
i may actually go to calc today
maybe
if i want to
and if theres anything important
...or not
shutdown
as of 131 minutes ago
the state of michigan is partially shut down
....
woohoo?
its finally october
my favorite month of the year
and yes, i'm aware
that winter is my favorite season
and that i adamantly say it, but
most "winter" months suck
december, for obvious reasons
i have a bad history with januaries
nothing ever happens in february
and march, well
march just sucks
so, for a while now
i've been listening to a lot of songs
that usually [if not always] really make me sad
dont get me wrong
they're all beautiful pieces
but they all make me sadder/depressed than/as hell
and i'm consciously aware that they do
and i listen to them anyway
i wonder if i'll sleep before three tonight
the state of michigan is partially shut down
....
woohoo?
its finally october
my favorite month of the year
and yes, i'm aware
that winter is my favorite season
and that i adamantly say it, but
most "winter" months suck
december, for obvious reasons
i have a bad history with januaries
nothing ever happens in february
and march, well
march just sucks
so, for a while now
i've been listening to a lot of songs
that usually [if not always] really make me sad
dont get me wrong
they're all beautiful pieces
but they all make me sadder/depressed than/as hell
and i'm consciously aware that they do
and i listen to them anyway
i wonder if i'll sleep before three tonight
9/29/07
khassar de templari
i actually did have something to say
but i completely blanked on it
fuck
my memory has been going lately
and its getting on my nerves
because i dont need memory problems
...
and i definitely just remembered what i was going to say
it was that my memory has been going lately
god
so
something i've not understood
and probly never will
is wearing a suit jacket
not with a suit, just with jeans and a tshirt
I DONT GET IT
i think it looks kinda stupid
maybe its just a way to be scene
or some such ridiculous thing
god only knows
everyone [minus myself, allison and mike]
went home to back to mt morris for homecoming
i guess that isnt everyone, just emily/nick/carter
dont really get why they went, either
none of them really like homecoming
probly was just an excuse to go home [again]
i really want to use my ipod
what with it being new and all
and the fact that i'm getting tired of listening to the same fourteen cds
over and over and over again
soon enough, soon enough
but i completely blanked on it
fuck
my memory has been going lately
and its getting on my nerves
because i dont need memory problems
...
and i definitely just remembered what i was going to say
it was that my memory has been going lately
god
so
something i've not understood
and probly never will
is wearing a suit jacket
not with a suit, just with jeans and a tshirt
I DONT GET IT
i think it looks kinda stupid
maybe its just a way to be scene
or some such ridiculous thing
god only knows
everyone [minus myself, allison and mike]
went home to back to mt morris for homecoming
i guess that isnt everyone, just emily/nick/carter
dont really get why they went, either
none of them really like homecoming
probly was just an excuse to go home [again]
i really want to use my ipod
what with it being new and all
and the fact that i'm getting tired of listening to the same fourteen cds
over and over and over again
soon enough, soon enough
thx
after spending two nights at allison's/emily's
i'm actually going to sleep in my own bed tonight
which i'll appreciate
because i wont be waking up them taking photos of me
those i guess i cant complain
i suppose there's more devious things they could do
i hate getting headaches
they fuckin suck
and i have to stay up until it dissipates
cuz if i go to sleep with a migraine
i'll wake up with it
happens every time
i've actually started writing again
which is good
i went over a year without writing a single thing
i need the creative outlet
since i dont have a piano readily available
and i'm sure my roommate doesnt want to hear me sing
though i'm strapped for creative ideas
speaking of creativity
i really want to take up photography
i dont know why/how i got this urge
but i've always appreciated photos
i love taking them
though most of mine are god awful
and [most] everyone knows photos of me turn out hideous
maybe i just need to have a decent camera
and, you know, learn how to spot things
any thing worth taking a shot of, anyway
i'm actually going to sleep in my own bed tonight
which i'll appreciate
because i wont be waking up them taking photos of me
those i guess i cant complain
i suppose there's more devious things they could do
i hate getting headaches
they fuckin suck
and i have to stay up until it dissipates
cuz if i go to sleep with a migraine
i'll wake up with it
happens every time
i've actually started writing again
which is good
i went over a year without writing a single thing
i need the creative outlet
since i dont have a piano readily available
and i'm sure my roommate doesnt want to hear me sing
though i'm strapped for creative ideas
speaking of creativity
i really want to take up photography
i dont know why/how i got this urge
but i've always appreciated photos
i love taking them
though most of mine are god awful
and [most] everyone knows photos of me turn out hideous
maybe i just need to have a decent camera
and, you know, learn how to spot things
any thing worth taking a shot of, anyway
9/26/07
konscio
how do you spell the dream i had last night
fucking bizarre
jesus christ
apparently i was with two people from middle school
i never really knew them very well [brittany and saryn]
yet we were all swimming in a lake [looking] place
and we took a break
and climb up on this weird rock outcropping
and kept cutting my toe in the same place
everytime i tried to get down then back up
which i did about ten times, for some unknown reason
but we were talking about pretty much everything
people, places, things we had done
the random occurences at the lake
like the random low flying planes
and everyone that happened since i had left
then i dreamed i WOKE UP
and had missed calls from four people
all people i went to middle school with
think my subconscious is trying to tell me something?
fucking bizarre
jesus christ
apparently i was with two people from middle school
i never really knew them very well [brittany and saryn]
yet we were all swimming in a lake [looking] place
and we took a break
and climb up on this weird rock outcropping
and kept cutting my toe in the same place
everytime i tried to get down then back up
which i did about ten times, for some unknown reason
but we were talking about pretty much everything
people, places, things we had done
the random occurences at the lake
like the random low flying planes
and everyone that happened since i had left
then i dreamed i WOKE UP
and had missed calls from four people
all people i went to middle school with
think my subconscious is trying to tell me something?
2.7/4.0
apparently, i can't write
or, more specifically
i can't write well
about the book i had to read
i dunno if it goes back to the fact that i suck at life
or the fact that book was HORRID
i'm gonna go with the the book on this one [for once]
because, jesus christ
jane addams wrote a god awful book
fuck child labor
apparently, safari is being a little bitch
and locking up on me
every time i tried to shift-tab up here from the 'labels' thing
itd fucking not respond
methinks its itme to lay panther to rest
before i have to take it out behind a barn and shoot it
theres a long, brown hair thats stuck in one of my notebooks
and i know who it belongs to
or how it got there
if these fucking weather people
keep raising the fucking temperature forecast
severe fucking pain is going to be wrought upon them
with a fucking hammer
i hate hot weather, and the current spell
SUCKS
where's the fucking fall weather?
so
the stench in the dishroom
its usually unpleasant at its minimum
or, like it was today
pushing unbearable
when i got back to my room
i smelled like i'd been rolling in cadavers
stuffed with rotting/rotted food
i'm waiting for the day
when i actually write something in this
that isnt in the middle of the night
that day isnt today, thats for damn sure
or, more specifically
i can't write well
about the book i had to read
i dunno if it goes back to the fact that i suck at life
or the fact that book was HORRID
i'm gonna go with the the book on this one [for once]
because, jesus christ
jane addams wrote a god awful book
fuck child labor
apparently, safari is being a little bitch
and locking up on me
every time i tried to shift-tab up here from the 'labels' thing
itd fucking not respond
methinks its itme to lay panther to rest
before i have to take it out behind a barn and shoot it
theres a long, brown hair thats stuck in one of my notebooks
and i know who it belongs to
or how it got there
if these fucking weather people
keep raising the fucking temperature forecast
severe fucking pain is going to be wrought upon them
with a fucking hammer
i hate hot weather, and the current spell
SUCKS
where's the fucking fall weather?
so
the stench in the dishroom
its usually unpleasant at its minimum
or, like it was today
pushing unbearable
when i got back to my room
i smelled like i'd been rolling in cadavers
stuffed with rotting/rotted food
i'm waiting for the day
when i actually write something in this
that isnt in the middle of the night
that day isnt today, thats for damn sure
9/25/07
dewey, cheatem, and howe
i wonder how many people know what thats from
feel free to wager a guess
you would think
that a concise, clear statement
intentionally said in a way to erase all ambiguity
such as, 'fuck off, and never, under any circumstance, talk to me again'
would be easy enough to understand
apparently not
because, apparently
some people are too damn stupid to register the meaning
or believe that when i said it, i fucking meant it
i'm tired of the damn hot weather
i want it to be fall again
what with it, you know, being fall now
and, because its worth mentioning
today is dmitri shostakovich's birthday
he'd be 101, if he hadnt been dead since '75
its going to be a long damn week
feel free to wager a guess
you would think
that a concise, clear statement
intentionally said in a way to erase all ambiguity
such as, 'fuck off, and never, under any circumstance, talk to me again'
would be easy enough to understand
apparently not
because, apparently
some people are too damn stupid to register the meaning
or believe that when i said it, i fucking meant it
i'm tired of the damn hot weather
i want it to be fall again
what with it, you know, being fall now
and, because its worth mentioning
today is dmitri shostakovich's birthday
he'd be 101, if he hadnt been dead since '75
its going to be a long damn week
9/24/07
freud, breuer, and jung
hey, if you feel like reading something
i just wrote something
its probly crap, but you should read it anyway
its called 'doa'
apparently, i'm still wearing my work shirt
i don't know why
i'm also still awake
i don't know why
i didn't do nearly the amount of homework i should've
i don't know why
man, i just suck
and just so i can make this clear
i do actually have insomnia
yes, it is an actual medical condition
so i'm not using it as an excuse to stay up late
and i'm not using it as an excuse to sleep in
plus, when its coupled with my depression
it plays wonderful games with my head
where i stay up ungodly late
feeling like shit
and think about things i've [un]successfully repressed
like i am know
so if i say i feel like like i've been hit by a bus
because i was up half the night
i'm not lying
i have the very unpleasant feeling
that this coming week is really gonna suck
and i hate that
here's hoping i'm wrong, like normal
by the way, did i mention i'm self-deprecating?
because i am
ALL THE TIME
i'm done with this
i just wrote something
its probly crap, but you should read it anyway
its called 'doa'
apparently, i'm still wearing my work shirt
i don't know why
i'm also still awake
i don't know why
i didn't do nearly the amount of homework i should've
i don't know why
man, i just suck
and just so i can make this clear
i do actually have insomnia
yes, it is an actual medical condition
so i'm not using it as an excuse to stay up late
and i'm not using it as an excuse to sleep in
plus, when its coupled with my depression
it plays wonderful games with my head
where i stay up ungodly late
feeling like shit
and think about things i've [un]successfully repressed
like i am know
so if i say i feel like like i've been hit by a bus
because i was up half the night
i'm not lying
i have the very unpleasant feeling
that this coming week is really gonna suck
and i hate that
here's hoping i'm wrong, like normal
by the way, did i mention i'm self-deprecating?
because i am
ALL THE TIME
i'm done with this
9/22/07
hey, mike jordan
update your damn blog
i. hate. calculus.
dont care, i hate it
i know people who are good at math
many, actually
and i used to be one of them
apparently, though
i just suck at life [in general]
and calculus [specifically]
so
after playing tennis two days in a row
i'm kinda sore
not surprising, but i was expecting more pain
mostly because i'm incredibly lazy
and the fact that i can still play tennis?
to put it simply, amazing
went to the study abroad fair on tuesday
and looked through some really interesting programs
and, as it turns out
most of them are about the same price as a normal semester tuition
which would be comforting, if
I COULD AFFORD A NORMAL SEMESTER TUITION
so, until i very randomly and conveniently become rich
there's no hope for me to go anywhere
i am so ungodly bored right now
i'm watching xplay on g4
which is about as pathetic as it gets
so i'm going to attempt sleep
which will probly fail
good thing i dont have anything before 2 tomorrow
i. hate. calculus.
dont care, i hate it
i know people who are good at math
many, actually
and i used to be one of them
apparently, though
i just suck at life [in general]
and calculus [specifically]
so
after playing tennis two days in a row
i'm kinda sore
not surprising, but i was expecting more pain
mostly because i'm incredibly lazy
and the fact that i can still play tennis?
to put it simply, amazing
went to the study abroad fair on tuesday
and looked through some really interesting programs
and, as it turns out
most of them are about the same price as a normal semester tuition
which would be comforting, if
I COULD AFFORD A NORMAL SEMESTER TUITION
so, until i very randomly and conveniently become rich
there's no hope for me to go anywhere
i am so ungodly bored right now
i'm watching xplay on g4
which is about as pathetic as it gets
so i'm going to attempt sleep
which will probly fail
good thing i dont have anything before 2 tomorrow
9/19/07
intonation
it is fucking HOT again today
fuck a damn cow
what happened to the nice 60º weather of yon weekend past?
damn it
i hate summer
why cant it just die gracefully?
so
everyone's had the experience of
when someone they know says something
and it immediately triggers a memory, yeah?
well, it happened today in psych
and it was incredibly random
dr karon was talking about shakespeare
and how even he knew something of psychology
when i suddenly remembered:
when i used to do shakespeare during the summers,
one year we did a play [can't remember which one]
where one of the actors had to jump off the back of the stage
and "land" in a lake
well, the stage we used happened to be in front of a lake
so every time he'd jump off the back wall of the stage
he'd land on a big mat
someone would throw a big ass rock into the pond
and someone else would heave a big bucket of water into the air
and i thought it was the greatest thing ever
mustve been about ten years ago
but still, it was bitchin'
ive had 'exultate justi' stuck in my damn head
and it makes me want to die
cuz everytime i hear it in my head
i hear that one spot
where every fucking time the tenors sang it
they would be flat and scoop those fucking sixteenth notes
joe and i would laugh about it every time it happened
but now it's in my head
and it won't fucking go away
speaking of joe
even though he doesn't read this [i don't think]
"smiles! bright eyes! happyness!
assless chaps and bowler hats!"
fuck a damn cow
what happened to the nice 60º weather of yon weekend past?
damn it
i hate summer
why cant it just die gracefully?
so
everyone's had the experience of
when someone they know says something
and it immediately triggers a memory, yeah?
well, it happened today in psych
and it was incredibly random
dr karon was talking about shakespeare
and how even he knew something of psychology
when i suddenly remembered:
when i used to do shakespeare during the summers,
one year we did a play [can't remember which one]
where one of the actors had to jump off the back of the stage
and "land" in a lake
well, the stage we used happened to be in front of a lake
so every time he'd jump off the back wall of the stage
he'd land on a big mat
someone would throw a big ass rock into the pond
and someone else would heave a big bucket of water into the air
and i thought it was the greatest thing ever
mustve been about ten years ago
but still, it was bitchin'
ive had 'exultate justi' stuck in my damn head
and it makes me want to die
cuz everytime i hear it in my head
i hear that one spot
where every fucking time the tenors sang it
they would be flat and scoop those fucking sixteenth notes
joe and i would laugh about it every time it happened
but now it's in my head
and it won't fucking go away
speaking of joe
even though he doesn't read this [i don't think]
"smiles! bright eyes! happyness!
assless chaps and bowler hats!"
9/16/07
baronet
so, after a month away from home
i appreciate my moms cooking more
cuz, damn
she makes some good fucking food
so
for history, i have to write a paper
detailing the book we read
we got the assignment last tuesday
i planned to have it done by friday
so i could print it while i was home
did i?
no, because i
am a fucking procrastinator
shall it ever be cured?
doubtful
since i'm posting this
instead of actually writing it
i realized i haven't had a 'potatoe' in a while
so, denizens of ether, i bring you another:
my friend akemi has a friend named jordan
who just happens to be a diabetic
so, over the weekend
he proceeding to drink himself stupid
then, the next day at meijer
decided to binge on candy and sweets
he was hospitalized earlier today
with a blood sugar level of over 600
which is way too fuckin high
since its not supposed to be over 110
so, jordan, while you try to regain normal body function
and proceed to miss the tests you have tomorrow
enjoy your status as today's 'potatoe'
you deserve it
i appreciate my moms cooking more
cuz, damn
she makes some good fucking food
so
for history, i have to write a paper
detailing the book we read
we got the assignment last tuesday
i planned to have it done by friday
so i could print it while i was home
did i?
no, because i
am a fucking procrastinator
shall it ever be cured?
doubtful
since i'm posting this
instead of actually writing it
i realized i haven't had a 'potatoe' in a while
so, denizens of ether, i bring you another:
my friend akemi has a friend named jordan
who just happens to be a diabetic
so, over the weekend
he proceeding to drink himself stupid
then, the next day at meijer
decided to binge on candy and sweets
he was hospitalized earlier today
with a blood sugar level of over 600
which is way too fuckin high
since its not supposed to be over 110
so, jordan, while you try to regain normal body function
and proceed to miss the tests you have tomorrow
enjoy your status as today's 'potatoe'
you deserve it
9/13/07
lotrthon
for honors college, we have 'fireside chats'
which is basically the chance to sit and talk with h/c professors
at their homes, about issues/subjects they teach/specialize in
so i got a good one this weekend
and i cant go
...because i'm not going to be here
you know whats really sad?
truly, incredibly, sad?
when a person, not born in this country
in her fifties, living here for only 15 years
knows more about grammar, sentence structure, and english in general
than her students do
seriously
my russian teacher, зарема [zarema], was teaching grammar today
and identifying things like predicate, direct/indirect objects
subjects, nominitive and prepositional cases
and she was getting blank stares from half the class
hows that possible?
there are so many interesting programs/clubs/orgs here
and i keep getting information for them
and every single damn time
i cant go to them
why?
they always have meetings when i fucking work
iro? can't
msumun? can't
hams journal? can't
goddamn
which is basically the chance to sit and talk with h/c professors
at their homes, about issues/subjects they teach/specialize in
so i got a good one this weekend
and i cant go
...because i'm not going to be here
you know whats really sad?
truly, incredibly, sad?
when a person, not born in this country
in her fifties, living here for only 15 years
knows more about grammar, sentence structure, and english in general
than her students do
seriously
my russian teacher, зарема [zarema], was teaching grammar today
and identifying things like predicate, direct/indirect objects
subjects, nominitive and prepositional cases
and she was getting blank stares from half the class
hows that possible?
there are so many interesting programs/clubs/orgs here
and i keep getting information for them
and every single damn time
i cant go to them
why?
they always have meetings when i fucking work
iro? can't
msumun? can't
hams journal? can't
goddamn
9/12/07
deux
here i am
2`36 in the morning
on my computer
why?
–i took a nap from 6`30 to 8`30, so this is my body's way of punishing me
–my roommate is snoring like a motherfucker [like he does every night]
–because i'm just naturally an insomniac
i have my music class today
in about 13 1/2 hours
thank god for that class
it keeps me sane
god knows how well i'll hold up next semester
it'll be my first semester without a music class in...
christ...
10 years
i dont have to work today
which means i don't have to call in today
which means i won't get docked [again]
which means i better get some fucking sleep
or i'm gonna shoot a puppy
which isn't an option
because i don't have a puppy
2`36 in the morning
on my computer
why?
–i took a nap from 6`30 to 8`30, so this is my body's way of punishing me
–my roommate is snoring like a motherfucker [like he does every night]
–because i'm just naturally an insomniac
i have my music class today
in about 13 1/2 hours
thank god for that class
it keeps me sane
god knows how well i'll hold up next semester
it'll be my first semester without a music class in...
christ...
10 years
i dont have to work today
which means i don't have to call in today
which means i won't get docked [again]
which means i better get some fucking sleep
or i'm gonna shoot a puppy
which isn't an option
because i don't have a puppy
9/11/07
nada
so, no fire alarms since friday
apparently, the jackass decided to stop
i haven't been this exhausted in...
christ, not since my period of enlightened euphoria
which wouldve been early to mid '06
closing brimstone sucks
closing brimstone BY YOURSELF sucks worse
closing brimstone by yourself TWICE IN ONE WEEKEND?
fuckin priceless
my hands havent ever been that/this cut up
fucking steel wool i had to scrape the grates with
also
i dunno what's been up with sleeping in this room
last night i went to bed at 10`45
i figured i'd get about 10-12 hours of sleep
since i didnt have to get up till 10`30
did i? of course not
kept waking up all night sweating my ass off
dunno how, since it was 50º outside, and the window was open
i, apparently, am in need of a nap
and i don't think i'm going to work today
i doubt i'll last half an hour in that dishroom
i miss reading
actual reading, the kind you do because you want to
the kind where you sit/lay down and just read for about 5 hours
devouring a really good novel like a roast chicken
as opposed to reading a bunch of b/s about child labor
some righteousness, reforming, progressive bitch
complaining about the state of children in the 1900s and 1910s
i could do without that
never, in the history of my life
have i ever not looked forward to a history class
and yet now, i do
damn
today
i remember going into mr cusson's class
and preparing myself for a long, arduous period
and hearing eli levine talk about how the twin towers were gone
and we had a...'philosophical' discussion about it
and how, when i got home
all i did was watch tv for the three hours before my dad got home
but most of all
how, when i crossed the goldstar bridge
i could see that cloud above the horizon
it makes such a difference having lived out there
people in michigan
or anywhere not near the northeast
just don't quite grasp its enormity
because they simply weren't there
i have to go down and tell my boss i'm not coming in
i don't have the energy to work 4 hours in the dishroom
i don't have the energy for class, either
but my prof will get pissed if i don't go
so i don't really have a choice
apparently, the jackass decided to stop
i haven't been this exhausted in...
christ, not since my period of enlightened euphoria
which wouldve been early to mid '06
closing brimstone sucks
closing brimstone BY YOURSELF sucks worse
closing brimstone by yourself TWICE IN ONE WEEKEND?
fuckin priceless
my hands havent ever been that/this cut up
fucking steel wool i had to scrape the grates with
also
i dunno what's been up with sleeping in this room
last night i went to bed at 10`45
i figured i'd get about 10-12 hours of sleep
since i didnt have to get up till 10`30
did i? of course not
kept waking up all night sweating my ass off
dunno how, since it was 50º outside, and the window was open
i, apparently, am in need of a nap
and i don't think i'm going to work today
i doubt i'll last half an hour in that dishroom
i miss reading
actual reading, the kind you do because you want to
the kind where you sit/lay down and just read for about 5 hours
devouring a really good novel like a roast chicken
as opposed to reading a bunch of b/s about child labor
some righteousness, reforming, progressive bitch
complaining about the state of children in the 1900s and 1910s
i could do without that
never, in the history of my life
have i ever not looked forward to a history class
and yet now, i do
damn
today
i remember going into mr cusson's class
and preparing myself for a long, arduous period
and hearing eli levine talk about how the twin towers were gone
and we had a...'philosophical' discussion about it
and how, when i got home
all i did was watch tv for the three hours before my dad got home
but most of all
how, when i crossed the goldstar bridge
i could see that cloud above the horizon
it makes such a difference having lived out there
people in michigan
or anywhere not near the northeast
just don't quite grasp its enormity
because they simply weren't there
i have to go down and tell my boss i'm not coming in
i don't have the energy to work 4 hours in the dishroom
i don't have the energy for class, either
but my prof will get pissed if i don't go
so i don't really have a choice
9/8/07
al-khansā
so i dunno what the fuck is up with the fire alarm going off
but its getting really fucking annoying
it went off twice today
FIRST TIME
9`45 in the fucking goddamn morning
half our hall was still asleep
every guy out there was in tshirts, shorts, and flipflops
we went back in about 15 minutes later
that just wasnt right
SECOND TIME
bout 22`15 tonight
had to evacuate the entire gallery
staff and all
we were out there for fuckin half an hour
find out later the alarm tripped was in first floor snyder north
which means, some jackass pulled the alarm
we had to throw out all the food we had
cuz it just sat there and got cold
i can't imagine the fire dep't is too happy right now
i'm certainly not
i'm closing at brimstone tomorrow night
and i swear to your god
i am not staying past midnight
under any circumstances
today was just incredibly gray
it rained about 4 different times
and the humidity never went away
just had a half depressed mood all day
i did get to talk to my psych professor though
he's a really interesting guy
got his ph.d in 1957, so he's been at it a long time
he's published bout 150 papers
and his main expertises are psychoanalysis and schizophrenia
anyway, we had an interesting conversation
about psychiatrists/psychologists/behavorial therapists
and their...preference towards immediately medicating
which is definitely not anywhere near the proper treatment
i would know
10 minutes in my psychiatrists office got me two meds
together, they blinded me and made me pass out
not pleasant
but its getting really fucking annoying
it went off twice today
FIRST TIME
9`45 in the fucking goddamn morning
half our hall was still asleep
every guy out there was in tshirts, shorts, and flipflops
we went back in about 15 minutes later
that just wasnt right
SECOND TIME
bout 22`15 tonight
had to evacuate the entire gallery
staff and all
we were out there for fuckin half an hour
find out later the alarm tripped was in first floor snyder north
which means, some jackass pulled the alarm
we had to throw out all the food we had
cuz it just sat there and got cold
i can't imagine the fire dep't is too happy right now
i'm certainly not
i'm closing at brimstone tomorrow night
and i swear to your god
i am not staying past midnight
under any circumstances
today was just incredibly gray
it rained about 4 different times
and the humidity never went away
just had a half depressed mood all day
i did get to talk to my psych professor though
he's a really interesting guy
got his ph.d in 1957, so he's been at it a long time
he's published bout 150 papers
and his main expertises are psychoanalysis and schizophrenia
anyway, we had an interesting conversation
about psychiatrists/psychologists/behavorial therapists
and their...preference towards immediately medicating
which is definitely not anywhere near the proper treatment
i would know
10 minutes in my psychiatrists office got me two meds
together, they blinded me and made me pass out
not pleasant
9/7/07
jiāngběi
apparently, one of the people on my floor has a piano
an electric one, not an upright
and he plays it all the time, it seems
i'd be fine with this normally
but i'm not
why?
BECAUSE HE ALWAYS PLAYS THE SAME FUCKING SONG
dont mind a good song
but every time i hear him play
its the same chord progression
and the same quarter notes in the left hand
learn a new song, jackass
and stop trying to sing
remember what i said a couple days ago
about not thinking people were going to do well in russian?
definitely gonna stand by that belief
goddamn
it was really gray today
and humid, and hot
it needs to rain
no, fuck that
it needs to SNOW
so, today's 'potatoe' is not so much a person
as it is a thing:
i was working at brimstone today
[the burger place]
and while i was cooking some burgers
i noticed smoke around the ceiling over the salad bar
which was odd, since theres no cooking equipment over there
so the smoke reaches the detectors
and the fire alarm goes off
the reason?
a toaster caught its crumbs on fire, apparently
and some jackass yakking on his phone
who apparently runs our complex
was bitching at the brimstone cook to shut down the charbroiler
.........
fast forward 8 hours
walking back to phillips from south complex with stacy killian
get past fairchild theater
and i see a large group of people outside the dorm
apparently the fire alarm went off again
and everyone evacuated
we were even passed by a fire truck when we were on shaw lane
just as we got back, they let everyone back in
the official cause? still under investigation
so, today's 'potatoe' is our fire alarm
an electric one, not an upright
and he plays it all the time, it seems
i'd be fine with this normally
but i'm not
why?
BECAUSE HE ALWAYS PLAYS THE SAME FUCKING SONG
dont mind a good song
but every time i hear him play
its the same chord progression
and the same quarter notes in the left hand
learn a new song, jackass
and stop trying to sing
remember what i said a couple days ago
about not thinking people were going to do well in russian?
definitely gonna stand by that belief
goddamn
it was really gray today
and humid, and hot
it needs to rain
no, fuck that
it needs to SNOW
so, today's 'potatoe' is not so much a person
as it is a thing:
i was working at brimstone today
[the burger place]
and while i was cooking some burgers
i noticed smoke around the ceiling over the salad bar
which was odd, since theres no cooking equipment over there
so the smoke reaches the detectors
and the fire alarm goes off
the reason?
a toaster caught its crumbs on fire, apparently
and some jackass yakking on his phone
who apparently runs our complex
was bitching at the brimstone cook to shut down the charbroiler
.........
fast forward 8 hours
walking back to phillips from south complex with stacy killian
get past fairchild theater
and i see a large group of people outside the dorm
apparently the fire alarm went off again
and everyone evacuated
we were even passed by a fire truck when we were on shaw lane
just as we got back, they let everyone back in
the official cause? still under investigation
so, today's 'potatoe' is our fire alarm
9/5/07
kōdōkan
god
in the list of the worst days i've ever had
this one probly rates in the low twenties
christ
breakdown:
couldnt sleep last night cuz it was so fucking hot in here
yet it was 60º outside
woke up early to do my laundry
and couldnt cuz the fucking machine wouldnt work
finished my history homework
then realized i forgot to do part of it
went to work [in the dishroom again]
apparently my left eye is bloodshot
i walked into the office to clock in
and hilary asked if i had pinkeye
you know
of all the personality traits to have
and all of the ones that i personally loathe
few get under my skin more than being patronizing
example
a girl in my history class
seems to have a need to get the last word in edgewise
she does make some valid points
however
her tone of voice usually drips with passive aggressiveness
so, not only does she condescend
she does it will a smile on her face
like 'oh, isn't that just such an INTERESTING point of view...
its too bad that i have to disagree completely'
should be a fun thirteen more classes with her
i have a distinct, foreboding feeling
that most of the people in my russian class
are not going to pass
and if they do, it'll be by the skin of their teeth
maybe its just me
in the list of the worst days i've ever had
this one probly rates in the low twenties
christ
breakdown:
couldnt sleep last night cuz it was so fucking hot in here
yet it was 60º outside
woke up early to do my laundry
and couldnt cuz the fucking machine wouldnt work
finished my history homework
then realized i forgot to do part of it
went to work [in the dishroom again]
apparently my left eye is bloodshot
i walked into the office to clock in
and hilary asked if i had pinkeye
you know
of all the personality traits to have
and all of the ones that i personally loathe
few get under my skin more than being patronizing
example
a girl in my history class
seems to have a need to get the last word in edgewise
she does make some valid points
however
her tone of voice usually drips with passive aggressiveness
so, not only does she condescend
she does it will a smile on her face
like 'oh, isn't that just such an INTERESTING point of view...
its too bad that i have to disagree completely'
should be a fun thirteen more classes with her
i have a distinct, foreboding feeling
that most of the people in my russian class
are not going to pass
and if they do, it'll be by the skin of their teeth
maybe its just me
9/4/07
голоса
not mine, goddamn it
why, you ask?
because after yelling at the top of my voice
for three and a half hours in the dishroom
i am sans voice
i should be fine by tomorrow
if not, i'll get over it eventually
nothing could be as bad as the TWO MONTHS i fucking had laryngitis
god that sucked
[by the way, 'голоса' means voices
just in case youdont speak russian/can't infer meanings]
you know, this may be a ridiculous notion
maybe even a laughable
but i am of the opinion
and stop me if this is impractical
of people not leaving important shit on their trays
school ids, keys, wallets, shit like that
you'd think it was a given
is it?
no
which leads me to...
TODAY'S POTATOE:
so, i was working in the dish room, yeah yeah
tray comes down with a key on it
a master key, belonging to our head chef
caught it, and gave it to the snyder 'host' [person at the check-in]
bout 20 minutes later
a tray comes down with some guy's id on it
caught it, gave it to the snyder 'host'
the best one though, and today's potatoe
was the girl who left:
her ID, KEYS, and WALLET on the tray
she wouldve been completely fucked
if us dishroom people werent in possession of cat-like reflexes
thinking back to this past weeked
i can positively say i did four things
ate, slept, worked, and bathed
man, i'm a lazy bastard
why, you ask?
because after yelling at the top of my voice
for three and a half hours in the dishroom
i am sans voice
i should be fine by tomorrow
if not, i'll get over it eventually
nothing could be as bad as the TWO MONTHS i fucking had laryngitis
god that sucked
[by the way, 'голоса' means voices
just in case youdont speak russian/can't infer meanings]
you know, this may be a ridiculous notion
maybe even a laughable
but i am of the opinion
and stop me if this is impractical
of people not leaving important shit on their trays
school ids, keys, wallets, shit like that
you'd think it was a given
is it?
no
which leads me to...
TODAY'S POTATOE:
so, i was working in the dish room, yeah yeah
tray comes down with a key on it
a master key, belonging to our head chef
caught it, and gave it to the snyder 'host' [person at the check-in]
bout 20 minutes later
a tray comes down with some guy's id on it
caught it, gave it to the snyder 'host'
the best one though, and today's potatoe
was the girl who left:
her ID, KEYS, and WALLET on the tray
she wouldve been completely fucked
if us dishroom people werent in possession of cat-like reflexes
thinking back to this past weeked
i can positively say i did four things
ate, slept, worked, and bathed
man, i'm a lazy bastard
9/2/07
bomb the blogosphere
i hate my subconscious
HATE it
apparently, now
one nightmare a night just doesnt cut it
so last night i had two
christ
on a happier note..wait
nothing happy is gonna be in this post
apparently, i've come under scrutiny
as always, apparently
because some people think i'm trying/have tried to steal their girlfriends
to which i, very politely, am replying with
WHAT THE FUCK?
are you listening to yourself when you talk?!
get over it, and quite being so damn paranoid
its not getting you anywhere
god, closing in the dish room SUCKS
never gonna do that again
i need something for my head
preferably a screwdriver
but some excedrin will do in lieu of one
HATE it
apparently, now
one nightmare a night just doesnt cut it
so last night i had two
christ
on a happier note..wait
nothing happy is gonna be in this post
apparently, i've come under scrutiny
as always, apparently
because some people think i'm trying/have tried to steal their girlfriends
to which i, very politely, am replying with
WHAT THE FUCK?
are you listening to yourself when you talk?!
get over it, and quite being so damn paranoid
its not getting you anywhere
god, closing in the dish room SUCKS
never gonna do that again
i need something for my head
preferably a screwdriver
but some excedrin will do in lieu of one
9/1/07
спасибо
i need to change the name of my award
since 'murphy's champion' only covers those who have things go wrong on them
i need something else,
that encompasses that and complete acts of stupidity
and other moments lacking in brain function
actually, now that i think about it
i'm going to make it in honor of an illustrious man
a man who ispired us to adhere to the written word
a man who proved improvisation isnt always best
a true beacon of caustic wit, intelligence, and poor spelling
james danforth quayle
they'll be known as 'quayle's potatoes'
today's 'potatoe' was, yet again, someone in the gallery
a girl came up to the pizza area
and asked when the cheese pizza was going to be done
my coworker with said 'they'll be up in a couple minutes'
the girl said 'ok, i'll wait, cuz i'm a vegetarian, and i wont eat pepperoni'
my coworker said '...you could just pick the pepperonis off the pizza'
to which the girl replied, glaring fiercely 'THERE'D STILL BE PEPPERONIS ON THERE...I'LL JUST WAIT!'
so
the girl leaves, does god knows what, then comes back
she asks a different coworker when the cheese pizza will be up
my coworker said it'll be up in a little bit, it just has to be cut
which my first coworker was in the process of doing
the girl asked 'well, how long is that going to take?'
my coworker replied 'it'll just be a couple seconds'
to which the girl says 'welll...how many seconds? 4? 5?'
...
the same girl came up about half an hour later
looked at the pizzas we had out on the warmer
which were cheese and pepperoni
looked up at us and asked, 'what kind of pizzas are these?'
i went back up to sbs today to return a mathlab cd thing
apparently i ended up with two
since i didnt realize my calc book came with one
and i bought one separate
so i sold it back to them
$67 goddamn dollars
which means i have money now
which i can spend frivolous shit
speaking of the gallery
it seems that this weekend, they are woefully understaffed
so woefully understaffed, it seems
that they're paying people an extra $1/hour
i was supposed to work this weekend anyway
but now i'm getting an extra dollar every hour
which means i'll make an extra $15
which will probly go into the 'slurpee/coffee' fund
since 'murphy's champion' only covers those who have things go wrong on them
i need something else,
that encompasses that and complete acts of stupidity
and other moments lacking in brain function
actually, now that i think about it
i'm going to make it in honor of an illustrious man
a man who ispired us to adhere to the written word
a man who proved improvisation isnt always best
a true beacon of caustic wit, intelligence, and poor spelling
james danforth quayle
they'll be known as 'quayle's potatoes'
today's 'potatoe' was, yet again, someone in the gallery
a girl came up to the pizza area
and asked when the cheese pizza was going to be done
my coworker with said 'they'll be up in a couple minutes'
the girl said 'ok, i'll wait, cuz i'm a vegetarian, and i wont eat pepperoni'
my coworker said '...you could just pick the pepperonis off the pizza'
to which the girl replied, glaring fiercely 'THERE'D STILL BE PEPPERONIS ON THERE...I'LL JUST WAIT!'
so
the girl leaves, does god knows what, then comes back
she asks a different coworker when the cheese pizza will be up
my coworker said it'll be up in a little bit, it just has to be cut
which my first coworker was in the process of doing
the girl asked 'well, how long is that going to take?'
my coworker replied 'it'll just be a couple seconds'
to which the girl says 'welll...how many seconds? 4? 5?'
...
the same girl came up about half an hour later
looked at the pizzas we had out on the warmer
which were cheese and pepperoni
looked up at us and asked, 'what kind of pizzas are these?'
i went back up to sbs today to return a mathlab cd thing
apparently i ended up with two
since i didnt realize my calc book came with one
and i bought one separate
so i sold it back to them
$67 goddamn dollars
which means i have money now
which i can spend frivolous shit
speaking of the gallery
it seems that this weekend, they are woefully understaffed
so woefully understaffed, it seems
that they're paying people an extra $1/hour
i was supposed to work this weekend anyway
but now i'm getting an extra dollar every hour
which means i'll make an extra $15
which will probly go into the 'slurpee/coffee' fund
8/29/07
rüttenen
i truly, honestly believe
that i should not be allowed to interact with other humans
seriously
its like playing in traffic
no matter how well i try to not get hit
eventually, i'm gonna be roadkill
FUCK
my head
i hate migraines
a while ago i was invited to write something for the msu telecasters
i guess theyre looking for writers, i dunno
but anyway
after several failed attempts
it aint happenin
who didnt see that coming
i are so glad i only have one class tomorrow
itll give me time to do other things
like work
and do homework
and sleep
and stare blankly at walls
and do other mindless things
that require little/no thought
because my thoughts seem to be causing problems
and i dont need problems
so
no thoughts, no problems
right?
...
didnt think so
that i should not be allowed to interact with other humans
seriously
its like playing in traffic
no matter how well i try to not get hit
eventually, i'm gonna be roadkill
FUCK
my head
i hate migraines
a while ago i was invited to write something for the msu telecasters
i guess theyre looking for writers, i dunno
but anyway
after several failed attempts
it aint happenin
who didnt see that coming
i are so glad i only have one class tomorrow
itll give me time to do other things
like work
and do homework
and sleep
and stare blankly at walls
and do other mindless things
that require little/no thought
because my thoughts seem to be causing problems
and i dont need problems
so
no thoughts, no problems
right?
...
didnt think so
8/28/07
galleria
i've decided to establish a new award
somewhat along the lines of the darwin awards
i'm going to call it 'murphy's champion of the day'
murphy's law, anything that can go wrong will
you all know it
and with that, i inaugurate it with today's murphy's champion:
anonymous person at the gallery
this anonymous person at dinner at the gallery, bout 9`00 tonight
had some pizza and cookies [from what was left on the tray]
this person, like every other spartan, used his/her ID to get it
this person, unlike every other spartan, LEFT IT ON THE TRAY
whilst performing my cleaning duties
i happened to notice a card slide off the tray as i was hastily stacking it
i saw the magnetic bar along the back
and a [somewhat] smiling face on the front
just before it went down the drain to the garbage disposal
so, anonymous person at the gallery
you're fucked
speaking of the gallery
i'm gonna try to get this past kurt [my boss]
the next fucking person who asks me whats on the menu
while standing in front of a menu
is going to get a punch in the face
on a similar vein
any person[s] who decides to just randomly stop while walking
or stand in the middle of the floor looking around
while blocking someone who's trying to do their job
will get a punch to the back of the head
so
'africa'
good song
for some reason i like hymns
even though i'm not christian
or religious at all, for that matter
dunno
something about their formulaic construction appeals to me
that and
i just like william billings
go figure
somewhat along the lines of the darwin awards
i'm going to call it 'murphy's champion of the day'
murphy's law, anything that can go wrong will
you all know it
and with that, i inaugurate it with today's murphy's champion:
anonymous person at the gallery
this anonymous person at dinner at the gallery, bout 9`00 tonight
had some pizza and cookies [from what was left on the tray]
this person, like every other spartan, used his/her ID to get it
this person, unlike every other spartan, LEFT IT ON THE TRAY
whilst performing my cleaning duties
i happened to notice a card slide off the tray as i was hastily stacking it
i saw the magnetic bar along the back
and a [somewhat] smiling face on the front
just before it went down the drain to the garbage disposal
so, anonymous person at the gallery
you're fucked
speaking of the gallery
i'm gonna try to get this past kurt [my boss]
the next fucking person who asks me whats on the menu
while standing in front of a menu
is going to get a punch in the face
on a similar vein
any person[s] who decides to just randomly stop while walking
or stand in the middle of the floor looking around
while blocking someone who's trying to do their job
will get a punch to the back of the head
so
'africa'
good song
for some reason i like hymns
even though i'm not christian
or religious at all, for that matter
dunno
something about their formulaic construction appeals to me
that and
i just like william billings
go figure
8/27/07
casa de pepe
classes seem to be going alright
the two that i've had today
goddamn i woke up early
it was hotter than hell this morning
i actually met someone today
i caught me off guard
i think mike's antisocial surprise at being talked to is rubbing off on me
she seemed to be quite the interesting person
and
SHE'S FROM BYELARUS
how awesome is that?
quickly, because i have class in wells:
if a chicken and a half can lay an egg and a half in a day and a half
how long does it take a one-legged monkey to kick the seeds out of a dill pickle?
the two that i've had today
goddamn i woke up early
it was hotter than hell this morning
i actually met someone today
i caught me off guard
i think mike's antisocial surprise at being talked to is rubbing off on me
she seemed to be quite the interesting person
and
SHE'S FROM BYELARUS
how awesome is that?
quickly, because i have class in wells:
if a chicken and a half can lay an egg and a half in a day and a half
how long does it take a one-legged monkey to kick the seeds out of a dill pickle?
8/24/07
clams!
you know
three people, on their first day,
should not run an food area by themselves
christ
i spent longer cleaning up that damn station
than i did working my actual shift
for all/any people
i'd recommend watching scott mercurio on comedy central sometime
he's damn funny
i dont know whats been going on lately
but my 'bulk' mail has been overflowing with junk mail
what the hell?
i used to get virtually none
now all of a sudden i can lengthen/harden my penis, sign up for online gaming, cybersex with hot chicks, get free online checkups from actual physicians, and get millions of dollars from bill gates
bastards
sweet cuddly baby jesus
there's a group in the college of social science
called 'historical association of michigan state'
HAMS
and they call themselves 'hamsters'
obviously, i signed up for it
and, better still
my associate dean is irish
beat that
three people, on their first day,
should not run an food area by themselves
christ
i spent longer cleaning up that damn station
than i did working my actual shift
for all/any people
i'd recommend watching scott mercurio on comedy central sometime
he's damn funny
i dont know whats been going on lately
but my 'bulk' mail has been overflowing with junk mail
what the hell?
i used to get virtually none
now all of a sudden i can lengthen/harden my penis, sign up for online gaming, cybersex with hot chicks, get free online checkups from actual physicians, and get millions of dollars from bill gates
bastards
sweet cuddly baby jesus
there's a group in the college of social science
called 'historical association of michigan state'
HAMS
and they call themselves 'hamsters'
obviously, i signed up for it
and, better still
my associate dean is irish
beat that
8/23/07
hrólfr
WARNING AND DISCLAIMER:
rant and and opinions to follow
do not read if you have a weak constitution
or arguementative tendencies
i dunno about anyone else
but i am fucking tired of people talking about religious war
especially nowadays
people talking about muslims training their kids for jihad
such idiocy
its not like christianity isnt doing the same thing in a different way
i mean, come on
stereotyping all middle easterners
boycotting and protesting anything to do with the pan-arab world
all the way to evangelists calling for their annihilation?
sounds pretty on par with them, if you ask me
but hey, what do i know?
i'm just an ignorant american
what really gets me
is that people act like this is the first time its ever happened
how fucking dumb is that?
my parents told me stories about how people were surprised at things like the munich massacre
and ensuing insanity with them and idi amin
like they never thought 'huh, people fight because of religion? guess that makes sense'
christ
its been going on since the advent of time!
the holy roman empire wasn't always holy
the crusades didnt just happen out of nowhere
the ottomans weren't passively religious
as long as there is human life
there will be war
and as long as there is religion
there will by holy war
fact of life
get used to it
cuz it ain't about to end now
rant and and opinions to follow
do not read if you have a weak constitution
or arguementative tendencies
i dunno about anyone else
but i am fucking tired of people talking about religious war
especially nowadays
people talking about muslims training their kids for jihad
such idiocy
its not like christianity isnt doing the same thing in a different way
i mean, come on
stereotyping all middle easterners
boycotting and protesting anything to do with the pan-arab world
all the way to evangelists calling for their annihilation?
sounds pretty on par with them, if you ask me
but hey, what do i know?
i'm just an ignorant american
what really gets me
is that people act like this is the first time its ever happened
how fucking dumb is that?
my parents told me stories about how people were surprised at things like the munich massacre
and ensuing insanity with them and idi amin
like they never thought 'huh, people fight because of religion? guess that makes sense'
christ
its been going on since the advent of time!
the holy roman empire wasn't always holy
the crusades didnt just happen out of nowhere
the ottomans weren't passively religious
as long as there is human life
there will be war
and as long as there is religion
there will by holy war
fact of life
get used to it
cuz it ain't about to end now
wall of voodoo
goddamn it
why the hell wont my dorm let me sleep past 9`30?
christ
first two days its maintenance people
today it was fuckin move in day
which started at 8
at tomorrow i have to get up to listen to some woman talk
whoo fuckin hoo
it seems that the dorm two of my friends live in SUCKS
its just crappy looking
and full of weird people
one can hope they survive
it also seems
that its incredibly easy to scare people
who keep their dorm doors open
all you have to is approach quietly
then scream something
and let the hilarity ensue
[sorry members of the apathy trifecta, couldn't resist]
why the hell wont my dorm let me sleep past 9`30?
christ
first two days its maintenance people
today it was fuckin move in day
which started at 8
at tomorrow i have to get up to listen to some woman talk
whoo fuckin hoo
it seems that the dorm two of my friends live in SUCKS
its just crappy looking
and full of weird people
one can hope they survive
it also seems
that its incredibly easy to scare people
who keep their dorm doors open
all you have to is approach quietly
then scream something
and let the hilarity ensue
[sorry members of the apathy trifecta, couldn't resist]
8/21/07
haz/com
christ
training videos, i understand, i get their use
but son of a bitch, do they all have to be so damn campy?
we're all adults here, and its professional work environment things their covering
so why the hell cant they be normal[er than what we had to watch]
you know what else would be nice?
pertinence
i work in a dining hall
ladders/dangerous chemicals/asbestos really arent going to come into play
that maintenance guy better not wake me up again tomorrow
he could at least come at a decent hour
like noon, or midnight
not 9`30
its been drizzling like this for the past 4 days
and its gonna keep it up till friday
the worst part?
its gonna be up to 90 by wednesday
what the hell?
if its gonna be dreary new england weather
it could at least be accompanied by the commiserate cold
regardless of the fact that this isnt new england
training videos, i understand, i get their use
but son of a bitch, do they all have to be so damn campy?
we're all adults here, and its professional work environment things their covering
so why the hell cant they be normal[er than what we had to watch]
you know what else would be nice?
pertinence
i work in a dining hall
ladders/dangerous chemicals/asbestos really arent going to come into play
that maintenance guy better not wake me up again tomorrow
he could at least come at a decent hour
like noon, or midnight
not 9`30
its been drizzling like this for the past 4 days
and its gonna keep it up till friday
the worst part?
its gonna be up to 90 by wednesday
what the hell?
if its gonna be dreary new england weather
it could at least be accompanied by the commiserate cold
regardless of the fact that this isnt new england
8/19/07
first
so, fresh start
again
maybe it'll last this time
so, i'm officially a college student now, which means i now reside in a linoleum-floored closet
hozallah!
and my knees are sorer than hell from goin up those stairs and walking around campus
hozallah again!
i havent started unpacking yet
which is what tomorrow is for
i had a bitch of a time getting here today, christ
first, while we're loading my crap into my dad's car, he notices his tire is going flat, so he fills it up
five minutes later its going flat again....he had a slow leak at the valve, apparently
so we move all my stuff into my mom's car
we get on the highway, just get onto 69/75 exchange, and my dad [in my mom's car] starts slowing down
me and my mom [in my truck] get past bristol rd and we get a call from my dad
the car's clutch died and he had to coast down the exit ramp, where the car sat non-moving
so we had to tow the bitch home
i got a hold of nick's dad [a mechanic] when we got home, and he offered to fix my dad's tire
so we eventually got back on the road at 3`30
a full hour and 45 minutes after we left the first time
i hate vehicles
i believe sleep [or the lack thereof] is in order
again
maybe it'll last this time
so, i'm officially a college student now, which means i now reside in a linoleum-floored closet
hozallah!
and my knees are sorer than hell from goin up those stairs and walking around campus
hozallah again!
i havent started unpacking yet
which is what tomorrow is for
i had a bitch of a time getting here today, christ
first, while we're loading my crap into my dad's car, he notices his tire is going flat, so he fills it up
five minutes later its going flat again....he had a slow leak at the valve, apparently
so we move all my stuff into my mom's car
we get on the highway, just get onto 69/75 exchange, and my dad [in my mom's car] starts slowing down
me and my mom [in my truck] get past bristol rd and we get a call from my dad
the car's clutch died and he had to coast down the exit ramp, where the car sat non-moving
so we had to tow the bitch home
i got a hold of nick's dad [a mechanic] when we got home, and he offered to fix my dad's tire
so we eventually got back on the road at 3`30
a full hour and 45 minutes after we left the first time
i hate vehicles
i believe sleep [or the lack thereof] is in order
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