eàrr

when the world ends, collect your things, you're coming with me
when the world ends, you tuckle up yourself with me
watch it as the stars disappear to nothing
the day the world is over, we'll be lying in bed

i'm gonna rock you like a baby when the cities fall
we will rise as the buildings crumble, float there and watch it all
amidst the burning we'll be churning, you know love will be our wings
the passion rises up from the ashes when the world ends

when the world ends you're gonna come with me, we're going to be crazy
like a river bends, we're going to float through the criss–cross of the mountains
watch them fade to nothing
when world ends, you know, that's what's happening now
i'm going to be there with you, somehow

i'm gonna tie you up like a baby in a carriage car
your legs won't work 'cuz you want me so, you just lie spread to the wall
the love you got is surely all the love that i would ever need
i'm going to take you by my side, and love you tall 'til the world ends

you here with me, just you and me, floating through the empty empty
but don't you worry about a thing 'cuz i got you here with me
oh graces, oh grace,
when the world ends we'll be burning one,
when the world ends we'll be sweet makin' love

we're gonna dive into the emptyness, we'll be swimming
i'm going to walk you through the pathless roads
i'm going to take you to the top of the mountain that's no longer there
i'm going to take you to bed and love you, i swear, like the end is here

i'm going to take you up to,
i'm going to take you down on you
i'm going to hold you like an angel, angel
i'm going to love you, i'm going to love you
when the world ends i'm going to hold you
when the world is over, we'll just be beginning

meritxell

blogablogablogaOH LOOK I'M BACK
actually, that's a bit of a fallacy, since i never went away
i was merely attending to more important thing, such as
–my goddamn sanity
–my thesis [revisions and I SHOULD PUT IN A MAP OR FIFTY HARGHLBLARGH]
–re–moving into my house
–watching goddamn football
–doing productive things

and for those of you who have had to suffer through listening to me yammer about it,
yes, my thesis is done and turned in and graded and all that jazz
for those of you who give a shit, or those of you with my kind of crazy,
[namely those who find this shit interesting as well]
my next post will be all about it
so we'll just leave that particular topic be for now


what we will get back to is football,
because the college football season is officially over now
after that riveting national championship game [SARCASM],
my precious bowl season is over and i must again bid adieu to that truest of sports,
young men beating the piss out of each other, fully funded by institutes of higher learning
life is good, no?
since i continued my ever–foolish trend of making predictions,
let's look back over them shall we?

first off all, i'm proud to say i finished the bowl season with a winning record
8–5, a .615 percentage, which isn't too bad
especially considering my great showing last year and my dismal picks from two years ago
and since i didn't embarrass myself in the futuresight department,
let's take a gander at some of my finer and more idiotic predictions:

• boise state 56, arizona state 24 [picked boise]. this one was out of reach in 14 seconds [very literally], and arizona state never even came close. it was [at that point] the highest scoring bowl game and the most lopsided, but that was to be expected. boise was a powerhouse, asu was a cripple, and sometimes things just go the way they're supposed to.
• southern miss 24, nevada 17 [picked southern miss]. this game was just odd. not that there was anything particularly wrong with it, it was just felt weird. maybe because it was two teams that should have been better this season and inexplicably weren't, i dunno. at any rate, even though it didn't look it initially, i did pick the winner. so there's that.
• nc state 31, louisville 24 [picked nc state]. this game nearly had me for the fool. i knew nc state was gonna bring it, because i watched them take down clemson in a brutally efficient way, but i had no idea louisville was gonna play as well or as spirited as they did. this was one of the more evenly matched bowl games this season, and definitely one of the more exciting to watch. if louisville hadn't been intercepted with 52 seconds to go, they very easily could've finished their comeback and tied the game. thankfully for my record's sake, they didn't, and i started out 3–0.
• florida state 18, notre dame 14 [picked fsu]. i felt like a goddamn fool just after halftime of this bowl. notre dame was up 14–0 and the 'noles looked like group of bumbling invalids. thankfully, in true florida state fashion, they rattled off a pair of touchdowns in the first two minutes of the 4th quarter, gave themselves a 4 point lead with a field goal, and finally showed tommy rees that no one pulls that comeback shit on jimbo fisher. nobody. except mike london, tom o'brien, and butch davis. NOBODY.
• baylor 67, washington 56 [picked baylor]. christ on a crutch in january, i've never seen a game so perfectly epitomize the term 'basketball on grass'.washington's qb threw for 438 yards, baylor had three different 100+ yard rushers, they set an alamo bowl record for the most points scored in a half [59], broke the all–time bowl record for points scored in regulation [123], shattered the record total combined offense [1397], and featured the 2011 heisman winner [baylor's qb]. i was utterly blown away watching it. just after halftime, it looked like washington very literally would run away with the game [they were up 42–24], but like i prophecied, washington's defense was a goddamn train wreck. this was by far my most entertaining bowl pick, though not my favorite.
• oklahoma 31, iowa 14 [picked iowa]. after flying high at 5–0 to start the bowl season, my first loss was a resounding thud of a pick. i was expecting iowa to play like they did against michigan and northwestern, not like they did against nebraska and msu. christ. i understand that they were missing a key offensive component in marcus coker [who just today left the program], but they still had their qb and their stud of a wideout. apparently that just wasn't enough, though. at any rate, iowa sucked, oklahoma played like they weren't overrated, and a skycam tried to behead marvin mcnutt. overall, just a boring game. [SARCASM]
• texas a&m 33, northwestern 22 [picked a&m]. this pick was purely and simply a guess. i'd seen some of a&m's implosions over the course of the season [namely against arkansas and ok state], i'd watched northwestern slice their own achilles against army, michigan, and msu [see what i did there?] it was really a crapshoot, but every good series of picks needs a meaningless, could–go–either–way game, yeah? so this was mine. for the record, i took a&m because it was in texas, and i figured they'd want to do mike sherman proud.
• auburn 43, virginia 24 [picked virginia]. my second 'GODDAMN IT' moment of the bowl season came after auburn scored three straight touchdowns in the 2nd quarter. how am i supposed to keep lambasting teams for being overrated and under–talented when they keep winning impressively? cocksucking bastards. at any rate, auburn came to play with a couple really nice trick plays and real motivation, while virginia came to do some other kind of... fuck, i dunno. insert something scathing and witty in there for me, would ya? i have nothing left to give.
• houston 30, penn state 14 [picked houston]. this was my 'padding the stats' pick. as dearly as i love penn state football, i was well aware of their lackluster offense throughout the season. their defense really lived up to their name, but mcgloin/bolden couldn't do shit with any kind of consistency, even after mcgloin won himself the starter spot. so, with him sidelined due to a lockerroom–fight concussion, and the blonde bomber from houston prepping himself for another flawless performance, this one was a foregone conclusion. houston was gonna win this as easy as you please because they were plainly better.
• msu 33, georgia 30 [picked msu]. even today, a full week after it was played, it delights me to no end to say that my msu pick was right. they proved that they were worthy of accolades and notoriety after coming back from a 16–0 deficit to take the lead, tie the game, and finally win it in overtime. georgia gave them a run for their money [three overtimes' worth], but they pulled it out and gave the B1G its sole win on january 2nd. but enough with that, watch this blocked kick one more time, and tell me it doesn't bring a smile to your face bigger than dantonio's
• south carolina 30, nebraska 13 [picked nebraska]. after my elation at watching my team finally win in the postseason, after sitting at a glorious 8–2, the wheels came off my prediction bus. i knew what to expect out of south carolina [the team that beat both georgia and clemson this year], but i also knew what nebraska was capable of, or so i thought. apparently they just couldn't pull off another solid victory [like the ones they put up against msu, iowa, and ohio state]. so instead of becoming the B1G's twelth man to add parity, power, and respect, big red ends up giving them an extra bowl loss. what fun.
• arkansas 29, k state 16 [picked k state]. the 2 of the 1–2 punch was this game. the whole thing made no sense: k state didn't play at all like they did during the season, and arkansas played exactly like they did during the season. the wildcats stout defense was porous, their qb was mediocre at best at passing and completely mitigated out of the pocket, and the rest of their offense was simply unproductive. GAH FOOTBALL Y U NO MAKE SENSE SOMETIMES?!
• smu 28, pitt 6 [picked pitt]. the grand finale of my predictions was as bad a choice as i could make. pitt gave exactly zero reasons to be picked to win a bowl this season [see their back–to–back home losses to iowa and notre dame], and after having their coach bail on them in a positively randy edsall–esque showing, they were probly unhappy to not be done with their season. so basically i picked them because they're pitt and i love pittsburgh and i root for those teams whether i should or not.

what a rollercoaster of picks this year turned out to be
5 straight correct picks, 5 split picks, 3 straight losing picks
though i'm certainly glad to have not sucked at predictions,
i can only imagine what my numbers would look like had i not boycotted the bcs
i was pulling for both michigan and ok state in their respective games
i would very likely have picked west virginia over clemson
[more because i wanted clemson to lose more than i wanted them to win
and boy did they ever]
so that's three more wins right there
i honestly don't know who i would've picked in the rose bowl,
but i would likely have leaned towards wisconsin,
[more out of the need for the big ten to win a goddamn bowl game than anything else]
and i wouldn't have bothered with the ncg, because that was the farce of all farces
i may have boycotted the games,
but i did keep up with the gamecasts and see the highlight reels
man that game was a piece of shit
so shitty, in fact, it was the worst–rated bcs championship ever
game, set, and match bcs


since my beloved college football,
it's time to give most of my attention to pro football
though it'll be getting less of my attention from here on out,
thanks to a team that shall remain nameless [FUCK YOU, STILLERS]
i retain my overwhelming addiction to the sport,
but it's a little less fun when your team isn't in the playoffs anymore
on the plus side, i kinda know how falcons fans feel now
all those one–and–dones must get really tiring

once that's done,
my full attention will yet again return to the beauty that is college basketball
i've enjoyed watching msu and uconn's play this year [men's and women's]
and i'm getting all hot and bothered for conference tourneys to begin
they're still a long way off, but there's nothing wrong with looking forward
especially since on the other side of them is the championship tourney,
and past THAT is the sports winter known as 'baseball season',
during which i whimper and moan about there being no sports to watch,
and generally am somewhat unpleasant because of it
good thing that's not till mid–april, yes?
in other words, BRING IT, SUPERBOWL/MARCH MADNESS
i survived yet another bowl season, and now i'm coming for you

bowling

shame of shames,
i haven't posted anything football related since bowl season started
and i call myself a football fanatic
i hope yinz can forgive me
[see what i did there?]

at any rate,
since the glorious and wonderful bowl season is upon us in full force,
i did my annual tradition of picking winners for bowl games i care about
and here in about a month of so,
i plan to continue that with my tradition of posting about how wrong i was
cuz where's the fun in predictions without lambasting your own stupid choices?

surprisingly enough, i'm off to a 3–0 start
i actually don't remember when i got off to that good of a start
the three games i picked up till now were:
–las vegas: boise state over asu [final: boise 56, asu 24]
–hawai'i: southern miss over nevada [final: usm 24, nevada 17]
–belk: nc state over louisville [final: ncsu 31, louisville 24]
admittedly, all three of those bowls weren't on most peoples' radar,
but that's half the fun of this shit: picking games you have no vested interest in
so now that i've gotten those three out of the way,
let's take a look at the upcoming bowl slate

[a quick word:
i only picked games i cared about to some degree
games with teams i don't give a shit about aren't on here
and there's no bcs games due to my ongoing boycott]

here it is, my list in all its glory:
–champs sports: florida state over notre dame
–alamo: baylor over washington
–insight: iowa over oklahoma
–meineke: texas a&m over northwestern
–chick-fil-a: virginia over auburn
–ticketcity: houston over penn state
–outback: msu over georgia
–capital one: nebraska over south carolina
–cotton: kansas state over arkansas
–compass: pitt over smu

some of those were easy picks, some were excruciating
and here's the method behind my madness
–i'll always pick the noles over the irish, just cuz
–washington's defense has been super susceptible to high–powered offenses all season
the amount of points they gave up to stanford/nebraska/usc was just absurd
–my gut feeling is that iowa will show up and oklahoma won't
iowa's a better team than their production has shown,
and oklahoma was wildly overrated this year
–i don't think northwestern has it in them to win this game
it's in texas, and their defense won't stand up against the aggies balanced offense
–virginia's beaten more ranked teams than auburn has,
AND has the more balanced and talented team
–i love penn state, i really do, but they're gonna get embarassed in this game
we all saw how many points they gave up at wisconsin
it's gonna be that game all over again against houston
–there's no way i pick against msu, no way
–connor shaw may be an illusive little shit,
but the blackshirts will be the best defense they've faced since georgia
and i think nebraska can shut him down
–arkansas may have the better qb, but k state is the better all around team
plus k state has played better on the road than the hogs
–this one's more emotional than logical, but what the hell
i think if pitt shows up like they want to play, they'll get it done

as always, rant away if you disagree
GO GREEN

¿por qué?

okay, i'm not really sure what's going on,
but this blog has been BLOWING UP on the interwubs the past two days,
and three non–sites are the reason for all the traffic
i'm not really sure what's going on,
but i have a theory [well, two actually]:
one, i accidentally got myself listed on some ad–spamming site, or
two, some ad–spamming site is leeching off the links i've been posting

i dunno why this is happening now all of a sudden,
but i'm trying to figure that out
this post is actually serving a dual purpose
not only am i giving voice to my confusion,
but i'm also experimenting with theory #2 [note the lack of links]
¡SCIENCE!

ADDENDUM:
theory #2 is confirmed

sonkasedo

there is a tiny voice and it says "i love you"
on an old cassette tape, you know it
we're always older now and we still love each other,
but now we share our hearts with others

if i could tell you just one thing, it's that you're beautiful
and there's no need for changing,
like that old cassette playing over and over
until it finally sets in

and it doesn't really matter that much to me
cuz what you want for yourself isn't what i want for me
so it doesn't really matter that much to me
except when i think about your broken heart

meriadeg

i saw this article earlier today when i was scouting around the sports media
[for the record, i'm not really sure when i picked up that habit,
especially considering my disdain for said sports media]
and i found it a really interesting read
not because of what it reports [conflict between jim delany and mark hollis]
but rather who this guy talks to in getting this story
if the people he cites are actually in the positions he claims,
[something i'm always skeptical of]
what kind of duality is jim delany cultivating?
granted, i've been a pretty big fan of him since i started following the big ten,
especially when it comes to selling the conference and establishing btn,
but this does provide some interesting questions

also, and i say this as a spartan fan,
i'm completely aware of the writer's obvious msu bias
especially when downplaying gholston's penalties,
along with elevating the dirtiness of tayler lewan
that being said, he does raise some intersting points
give it a read here

what say you, sports fans?

emoth

this may be a shock to some of your systems,
so i urge, in the strongest possible terms,
listen to each video at your own discretion

in my never ending quest for good metal bands,
i end up looking through tons of wikipedia articles
and one of the bands i came across had a cool name
[i'm a sucker for well–named things]
so i look into them, and they're listed as being 'gothic rock'
normally this is not my cup of brutal, metallic tea
but i figured i'd give them a listen
[on youtube]
i wasn't just gonna download them on a whim,
because, just look at them

little did i know what i was in for
after a quick, innocent search,
i discovered something no man, woman, or child should ever hear:
the perfect emo/goth amalgam
they look like grown–up emo kids
but they dress in all black and have goth looking videos
musically, they're gothic rock all the way
but have lyrics that reek of emo–ness
they embody the worst of both emo and goth music,
with just a little bit of extra terribleness sprinkled on top

this is but a sampling
you've been warned
closure
my heart, your hands
i still lost
making the most
and, the coup de grâce, [i just] died in your arms

i told you, you shouldn't have listened

vonlenska

ýu ræ sul non fól, ýu ræ sul non fól
ýu ræ so uld nó

ýu ræ son mæ fon, ýu ræ son mæ fon
ýu ræ son mæ fon

ýu sæ gvæ

old sjí rus, old sjí rus
ó læ

urmi

so,
i may or may not be in chicago right now
getting ready to start a 3 day long labor studies conference
at which i am speaking and spending my weekend
sure beats the hell out of sitting at home doing homework, yeah?

iron horse

i learned a few things today:
—i can actually finish a crossword on my own accord, and
—i can finish two crosswords, a sudoku, a word find, and a number puzzle in an hour
—my coat isn't waterproof anymore
—i actually like the music of john tavener
—i found a word that perfectly sums up my feelings about my relationships with other people [even the sound of the word fits perfectly]
—it's never too cold to walk in a thunderstorm [though, truthfully, that was more a reminder than anything else]
—i don't ever want to read russian literature in russian


i feel like everyone i know is tired of hearing me bitch about russian
[this is where most people would promise to stop doing it so much]
well, i dunno what to tell you
on the plus side, i only have it for another two weeks
and then, very literally, NEVER AGAIN
[this is where most people would offer some sort of nostalgia]
i can't really remember shit about what i've learned these four years
other than dr merrill is a godsend, zarema is a nightmare
and i have the memory capacity of a retarded howler monkey
so, if you've suffered though me complaining about it this long,
at least be comforted in the fact that the end is nigh
and the beginning of me complaining about how much i've forgotten is at hand

if i didn't find its studiousness extremely tedious,
and its endless intricacies mind–numbing,
i'd honestly consider some sort of career in psychology
[and no, not as a clinical psychologist
would you want me psychoanalyzing your problems?]
the neurobiological sciences fascinate the fuck out of me,
and i love how they co–habitate with human psychology
if i felt like going through eons more schooling,
and actually had some sort of idea about what i could study,
maybe i'd take that route in the future
but i highly doubt it

there's a little drawing of me on the wall next to my desk
my friend eric drew it while we were working at our internships in new york
[it's one of my facebook profile photos, for those who can see them]
i've always kinda liked him
couldn't tell you why, i just do
i imagine this was going somewhere in my head,
but as words on the interwubs it seems to be just another dead–end thought
oh well


because i mentioned how much i've taken a shine to tavener,
and because i've been listening to this the entire time i've been writing this,
here's a composition of his i particularly enjoy


alleluia
may flights of angels sing thee to thy rest
alleluia
remember me, o lord, when you come into your kingdom
alleluia
give rest, o lord, to your handmaid, who has fallen asleep
alleluia
the choir of saints have found the well–spring of life and door of paradise
alleluia
life: a shadow and a dream
alleluia
weeping at the grave creates the song: alleluia
come, enjoy the rewards and crowns i have prepared for you
alleluia

keynote

so,
i'm not sure if any of you noticed,
but i was gone during fall semester of 2010
[i know, right? i had no idea either]
so if you keep referencing shit that happened here then,
and i give you a confused look,
one that connotes '…the hell are you talking about?',
that's why

there is a reason i bring this up
[and no, it's not to bitch about what i just did]
last november i got a 'call for papers' forwarded to me
normally i don't respond to those,
or even consider them,
[usually cuz nothing i've done would qualify]
but this one kind of intrigued me
i could do a talk in lieu of presenting a paper,
and it was on a topic that interested me,
so i gave it a shot

last week, after three months of waiting to hear back
i found out that my proposal got accepted
which means i get to give my first conference presentation here in june
at the working class studies association's 2011 in conference in chicago on june 23rd
i'll be talking about the state of labor education in the u.s.,
and the program i took part in over the fall
should be a good time
[also, i might get a scholarship for it
sweet, sweet money]

in other news,
uconn won the men's championship on monday
and i am pleased

dgiâbl'ye

i live my life like there's no tomorrow
and all i've got i had to steal
least i don't need to beg or borrow
yes, i'm livin' at a pace that kills

i found the simple life ain't so simple
when i jumped out on that road
i got no love, no love you'd call real
ain't got nobody waitin' at home

you know i,
i found the simple life weren't so simple, no
when i jumped out on that road,
got no love, no love you'd call real
got nobody waitin' at home

runnin' with the devil
[i'm gonna tell ya all about it]
runnin' with the devil
[goddamn it lady, you know i ain't lyin to ya
i'm only gonna tell you one time]
runnin' with the devil
[hold on, hold on, i'm runnin]
runnin' with the devil
[yes i am]

fionnúir

it's 6`30 in the morning, and the only emotion i feel is hunger
which is quite a feat,
considering i spent the entire weekend puking my guts out
and i do mean that literally
i managed to reach a point, about 12 hours into pure, abject sickness,
where i truly had nothing left in my body to vomit
it was quite the experience

tonight's batch of homework was noteworthy,
in the sense that, for the first time in at least two months,
i haven't been fist–shakingly angry by the time i finished
i believe it's the calming influence of rise against
perhaps, when the two are tackled in tandem,
they result in a perfectly harmonious, productive coupling
[well, not perfectly, but relatively close]
i'll have to keep that in mind when i write my essay sometime tomorrow

a true testament to the delirium under which i'm currently operating
not twenty minutes ago, i was trying to figure out what a word meant
my russian prof had spelled it wrong [surprise, surprise],
so i was left trying to guess at the right spelling
thankfully, i have a handy online dictionary for that
a handy online dictionary that offers spelling suggestions when you fuck up
so i finally found the word, in its perfective form
then, i see what its perfective form is:
соскакивать [pronounced 'sauce–COCK–ih-vuhts]
i laughed so hard i couldn't breathe for a solid minute and a half
it was truly the highlight of my morning

it's been raining pretty steadily for about the past twelve hours here,
though it's slowly increased over the past hour or so
which i found out when i got ready to leave the library
normally, when i go galavanting around in the rain,
i do so with as close to unmitigated joy as you'll ever get from me
this morning, though, it was rather mitigated
due to the fact that i had my laptop in my backpack
backpack–lugging tends to dampen the effects of rain on my mood
[not to put too fine a pun on it]

i saw the score from the msu–green bay women's game last night,
and was rather surprised
i would've imagined the women's team to go farther than the second round
the post–season has not been kind to big–name msu athletics this school year
they just can't seem to catch a break
now that i think about it, of the two sports i do watch regularly
[college/pro fooball and men's/women's college basketball],
none of the teams i've picked to go far [or win it all] have
they've all fallen by the wayside at some point before the season is over
that doesn't bode well, especially for my true favorite team
now is not the time to let me down, uconn huskies
you already failed me in the fiesta bowl this year,
don't fail me in the ncaa tournament


and now for a short commercial break [so i can go get food]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kk9oa_PiXAk
we now return to your regularly–scheduled ramblings,
all ready in progress


i'm not particularly sure when it started,
but i've started reading the freep a couple times a week
especially on tuesdays/thursdays, when i have my early class
i don't really have a reason why,
especially considering that there are better newspapers out there
[but, unfortunately, none that i have free access to
it's either that, the state news, usatoday, and/or the new york times
i'll be damned if i stoop so low as to read the times,
usatoday really just sucks (aside from their daily puzzles,
and the state news is just campus/city news usually]
i dunno, there just seems to be something right about sitting down,
getting some food, drinking a cup of tea, and reading the paper
maybe it's cuz i'm secretly a 40 year old man inside,
but it's one of those things i just seem to enjoy

also, i just realized something:
this is my first non–lyric post in a month [not to the day, unfortunately]
i'm not sure what i should think about that
on one hand, it's mostly good music, so there's no real loss
on the other, that gets really boring and stupid after a while
i probly shouldn't do it again
but i can guarantee i will

i don't know why,
i'm not sure what prompted it,
i don't even know where it came from
but i just had the insanely strong urge to watch the 'i'm on a boat' video
somewhere, somehow brombrom just started laughing,
and he's not sure why

addendum:
after looking back at it, and thinking about it for a good 30 seconsds,
i think 'it's 6`30 in the morning, and the only emotion i feel is hunger'
may in fact be the best opening line i've ever written on anything, ever
thoughts?

dimècres

it happens only in the day time,
she looks to me and says
but it's only in the night time, oh
she pulls me closer to her body so i can hear

out of knowledge in a way
from passing through her head
as it spins out of life and time
she keeps on trying to fight the evil in her mind

there's a kink and then a scream
but it's only in her dream
i look around and it's you, oh
i can't believe it's only wednesday
and she can't see that everyone is there except for me
i  know i don't want to lose this time

and she looks to me,
but she can't even believe it
but i don't want to lose this time

indvendig

сон
странный сон
я вижу отражение себя

столько лет
во мне
все слова

во мне
тишина

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the new movement

i'm writing this post on the bus to my hometown
where i'll be spending thanksgiving with my family
[and hopefully some of the few friends i still keep in touch with]
i don't think i've ever been on a bus ride this smooth before
cuz we all know how fucked up the roads are in michigan
and the ones in new york are just as bad, if not worse

also, it seems i have a new favorite cramped sleeping position
sitting, with my backpack in my lap
one foot on the footrest, the other curled underneath me
arms crossed over my bag, face down in my arms
and my head squarely pushing on the seat in front of me
that's how i've fallen asleep on every single trip i've taken this year
it seems to be developing into habit,
and i'm not sure if that's a good thing or not
at least i've managed to find a non–painful position
every other time i've fallen asleep on transit,
my neck always ends up in excruciating pain for a day or two

at any rate,
if anyone needs to get a hold of me,
i'm gonna be off the grid until monday at some point
which feels like a fucking treat after living in new york
fucking everyone's always wired into the system
no wonder they try to get away from it so often

speaking of getting away
i love coming back to places i haven't seen in years
it always gives me such a visceral reaction
tons of memories come flooding back,
and i get to see places i haven't seen in too long
fuck i missed connecticut

dayuhan

oh, satellite comes and goes
we give each other all we know
in silence we still talk
by the light of the stereo waltz
and will you rain down,
in your cinematic love truck?
i wanna hold you
like nothing's gonna stop us

flicker on a tv screen
everything's more than it seems
mighty backward fall
stare at the light on the wall
and i swear to this:
she felt like velvet
second blonde child
felt like velvet
velvet

and she comes to take me away
it's all that i needed
i don't need another lover, lover

i'm an alien,
you're an alien
it's a beautiful rain

oh, she come around again

język

hot

you can keep your black tongue
well, i found at the mortuary
you know you're gonna want some, want some
we're high in the back room,
gonna have a pack soon
with this you will regret,
so just let it be, yeah yeah yeah

sunny kept his ring on,
red tape so ordinary
love acting like it was gone gone, gone gone
let's do this like a prison break,
i wanna see you squeal and shake

we're gonna keep it in the family
yeah well, you know we're on the run
you know they're gonna want some, want some
we're high in the back room,
gonna have a pack soon
with this you will regret,
just let it be your yeah yeah yeah

boy, you just a stupid bitch
and girl, you just a no good dick

nicotinamidase

wish i could say i have something new to say
but, i really don't
i can say, though,
that i finally got that shitty electrodancepop out of my system
after six straight fucking days of it
apparently, there was only one acceptable followup to it
classical
i guess béla bartók follows up dan black better than i thought
who'd have known

as a complete aside,
i have a particular affinity for bartók
mostly his incredible efforts in cataloging european folk music
i've always found him to be incredibly underrated
since, as martin landau says in ed wood,
'now, nobody gives two fucks for béla'
[it's at 2`20]
i also got some more cds of him today at the library
which i am so looking forward to listening to

well,
since i've moved on to better music
i'm going to listen to the soothing sounds of román népi táncok
probly while blowing shit up in call of duty
summer definitely has it's pluses

scfc

it was a big ol' week in the ncaa last week
i was planning to write a post about it
[something about as long as my posts from earlier this year]
but, i'm not gonna
partially cuz i'm kinda lazy
and mostly cuz i don't think anyone would want to read it
so, instead, i'll give you the short version

first up, the big ten has a new member
last friday, we officially accepted nebraska
i'm still on the fence about it
i don't mind the big ten expanding,
honestly i think it's a good thing,
but i don't think nebraska was the best choice
maybe it's just me
i don't think taking from the big 12 was a good move
i have my reasons [and there are plenty]
and, if you want them, you'll get 'em
otherwise, that's it

speaking of the big 12,
they've now lost two of their members
[nebraska being the second]
earlier in the week,
colorado announced that they'll be joining the pac–10
also, in my opinion, not the best move
of all the teams the pac–10 could've taken
i don't see colorado being their best choice
it's not exactly at the calibre of the other pac–10 teams

and, on the subject of the pac–10,
they've also formally extended an offer to utah
which, supposedly, is gonna accept as early as later today
i'm not really sure what the pac–10 is up to,
but they seem to be reaching a bit far for expansion
the big ten does, too
and that seems kinda ridiculous to me
these two conferences are of the best in the country
they don't need to convince schools to join them
schools would line up for days to become part of them

what bothers me about these moves is this:
they all happened in the past week and a half
nebraska applied and was accepted into the big ten on the same day
colorado's decision took about two days
it really makes me question how these things are handled
obviously meetings have been happening for months
why does it all have to be behind closed doors?
even if the public isn't consulted,
which it probly shouldn't be,
they should at least be aware

the only conference change that makes sense to me is boise state
obviously they have really grown into a powerhouse team
and they have way outgrown the wac
so them moving to mountain west makes perfect sense
and the mountain is really looking to establish themselves,
so what better way than to bolster byu, tcu, and utah?
i think boise state'll do well in mountain west
maybe they'll finally get a shot at a national title now,
which they've definitely earned

if i'm feeling up to it tomorrow,
i might rant about some possible 'future re–alignments',
god knows there's some stupid rumors out there
so, consider this a head's up that this'll continue


also, a last side note
tom izzo's officially staying at msu
who honestly didn't see that coming?