i heard there is no christmas in the silly middle east
no trees, no snow, no santa claus, they have different religious beliefs
they believe in muhammad and not in our holiday
and so every december i go to the middle east and say...
hey there mr muslim, merry fucking christmas
put down that book, the koran, and hear some holiday wishes
in case you haven't noticed, it's jesus's birthday
so get off your heathen muslim ass and fucking celebrate
there is no holiday season in india, i've heard
they don't hang up their stockings, and that is just absurd
they've never read a christmas story, they don't know what rudolph is about
and that's why in december i'll go to india and shout...
hey there mr hinduist, merry fucking christmas
drink eggnog and eat some beef, and pass it to the missus
in case you haven't noticed it's jesus's birthday
so get off your heathen hindu ass and fucking celebrate
now i heard that in japan everyone just lives in sin
they pray to several gods and put needles in their skin
on december twenty fifth all they do is eat a cake
and that is why i'll go to japan and walk around and say...
hey there mr shintoist, merry fucking christmas
god is gonna kick your ass, you infidelic pagan scum
in case you haven't noticed, there's festive things to do
so lets all rejoice for jesus, and merry fucking christmas to you
on christmas day i travel round the world and say
taoists, krishnas, buddhists, and all you atheists too
merry fucking christmas to you
——————
well i'll tell you what,
maybe we should have ourselves a little christmas, right here
c'mon everybody, gather round!
string up the lights and light up the tree, we're gonna make some revelry
spirits are high, so i can tell, it's christmas time in hell!
demons are nicer as you pass them by, there's lots of demon toys to buy
the snow is falling and all is well, it's christmas time in hell!
there goes jeffrey dahmer with a festive christmas ham
after he has sex with it, he'll eat up all he can
and there goes john f kennedy caroling with his son
reunited for the holidays, god bless us, everyone!
everybody has a happy glow, let's dance in blood and pretend it's snow!
even mao tse tung is under the spell, it's christmas time in hell!
[satan] adolf, here's a present for you!
[hitler] oh? ein tannenbaum?!
[satan] yes, ein tannenbaum!
god cast me down from heaven's door to rule in hell forevermore
but now i'm kinda glad that i fell, cuz it's christmas time in hell!
here's a rack to have the stockings on, we still have to shop for genghis khan
michael landon's hair looks swell, it's christmas time in hell!
there's princess diana holding burning mistletoe
over poor gene siskel's head, just watch his weenie grow!
for one day we all stop burning, and the flames are not so thick
all the screaming and the torture stops as we wait for old saint nick!
so string up the lights and light up the trees, we're damned for all eternity
but for just one day, all is well, it's christmas time in hell!
get a toast together and make it quick, we gotta make room for andy dick
wake his mother and ring the bell
it's christmas time...
christmas time...
it's christmas time in hell!
12/25/08
11/24/08
yalnızlık
he was born on a summer day 1951
and with a slap of a hand
he had landed as an only son
his mother and father said what a lovely boy
we'll teach him what we learned
ah yes just what we learned
we'll dress him up warmly and
we'll send him to school
it'll teach him how to fight
to be nobody's fool
in the summer of '53 his mother
brought him a sister
and she told him we must attend to her needs
she's so much younger than you
well he ran down the hall and he cried
oh how could his parents have lied
when they said he was an only son
he thought he was the only one
he left home on a winter day 1969
and he hoped to find all the love
he had lost in that earlier time
well his sister grw up
and she married a man
he gave her a son
ah yes a lovely son
they dressed him up warmly
they sent him to school
it taught him how to fight
to be nobody's fool
oh what a lonely boy
and with a slap of a hand
he had landed as an only son
his mother and father said what a lovely boy
we'll teach him what we learned
ah yes just what we learned
we'll dress him up warmly and
we'll send him to school
it'll teach him how to fight
to be nobody's fool
in the summer of '53 his mother
brought him a sister
and she told him we must attend to her needs
she's so much younger than you
well he ran down the hall and he cried
oh how could his parents have lied
when they said he was an only son
he thought he was the only one
he left home on a winter day 1969
and he hoped to find all the love
he had lost in that earlier time
well his sister grw up
and she married a man
he gave her a son
ah yes a lovely son
they dressed him up warmly
they sent him to school
it taught him how to fight
to be nobody's fool
oh what a lonely boy
11/14/08
önceki
it's been a while since the two of us talked
about a week since the day that you walked
knowing things would never be the same
with your empty heart and mine full of pain
so explain to me, how it came to this
take it back to the night we kissed
it was dublin city on a friday night
you were vodkas and coke, i was guiness all night
we were sitting with our backs against the world
saying things that we thought but never heard
who would have thought it would end up like this
where everything we talked about is gone
and the only chance we have of moving on
is try to take it back before it all went wrong
there was a time that we'd stay up all night
best friends talking till the daylight
took the joys alongside the pain
with not much to loose, but so much to gain
are you hearing me, cause i don't wanna miss
set you adrift on memory bliss
it was grafton street on a rainy night
i was down on one knee and you were mine for life
we were thinking we would never be apart
with your name tattooed across my heart
who would have thought it would end up like this
where everything we talked about is gone
and the only chance we have of moving on
is try to take it back before it all went wrong
if the clouds don't clear
then we'll rise above it, we'll rise above it
heaven's gate is so near
come walk with me through
just like we used to, just like we used to
let's take it back before it all went wrong
before the worst, before we mend
before our hearts decide
it's time to love again
before too late, before too long
let's try to take it back
before it all went wrong
about a week since the day that you walked
knowing things would never be the same
with your empty heart and mine full of pain
so explain to me, how it came to this
take it back to the night we kissed
it was dublin city on a friday night
you were vodkas and coke, i was guiness all night
we were sitting with our backs against the world
saying things that we thought but never heard
who would have thought it would end up like this
where everything we talked about is gone
and the only chance we have of moving on
is try to take it back before it all went wrong
there was a time that we'd stay up all night
best friends talking till the daylight
took the joys alongside the pain
with not much to loose, but so much to gain
are you hearing me, cause i don't wanna miss
set you adrift on memory bliss
it was grafton street on a rainy night
i was down on one knee and you were mine for life
we were thinking we would never be apart
with your name tattooed across my heart
who would have thought it would end up like this
where everything we talked about is gone
and the only chance we have of moving on
is try to take it back before it all went wrong
if the clouds don't clear
then we'll rise above it, we'll rise above it
heaven's gate is so near
come walk with me through
just like we used to, just like we used to
let's take it back before it all went wrong
before the worst, before we mend
before our hearts decide
it's time to love again
before too late, before too long
let's try to take it back
before it all went wrong
10/27/08
for all of us who aren't aware
which, until half an hour ago, included myself:
at 9`38 sunday night there was another school shooting
this time at the university of central arkansas, in conway
from what i've been able to gather
two people have died, and another was treated at the hospital
police have reported that they have caught at least one suspect
and there are at least three more currently being sought
the campus was locked down shortly after the shooting
and classes tomorrow have been cancelled
it took at least three different articles to find that much
what makes me angry about reading this
i had to scour every website i could find to get info
this story hasn't broken in at least two different major american news sources
and the ny times only has a few small paragraphs on it
what makes this even worse
there is an article in an australian paper posted two and half hours ago
12`30 am local time, a full hour and a half before the ny times did
you know who else has a longer article than the american news?
the fucking london times
how the fuck does that happen?
how are american news sources that reluctant to break these stories?
and, if the do
why do they bury the headline?
this is absolutely unacceptable
there is no reason for this, none at all
this, of all things, should be THE headline right now
not some blurb buried under sports scores
one more reason to love this country, i guess
which, until half an hour ago, included myself:
at 9`38 sunday night there was another school shooting
this time at the university of central arkansas, in conway
from what i've been able to gather
two people have died, and another was treated at the hospital
police have reported that they have caught at least one suspect
and there are at least three more currently being sought
the campus was locked down shortly after the shooting
and classes tomorrow have been cancelled
it took at least three different articles to find that much
what makes me angry about reading this
i had to scour every website i could find to get info
this story hasn't broken in at least two different major american news sources
and the ny times only has a few small paragraphs on it
what makes this even worse
there is an article in an australian paper posted two and half hours ago
12`30 am local time, a full hour and a half before the ny times did
you know who else has a longer article than the american news?
the fucking london times
how the fuck does that happen?
how are american news sources that reluctant to break these stories?
and, if the do
why do they bury the headline?
this is absolutely unacceptable
there is no reason for this, none at all
this, of all things, should be THE headline right now
not some blurb buried under sports scores
one more reason to love this country, i guess
10/20/08
достопримечательности
currently, that is the longest word i've encountered in russian
the english equivalent? hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia
so, hell week has finally began
the plus side?
this time next week it will be completely done with
the down side?
that's another 168 hours from now
fuck
though, class wise, this week should be relatively light
here's fucking hoping
also, this is a general note for everyone
everyone who has worked/works with me:
never listen to anything i tell you
apparently i'm completely stupid
so stupid, in fact, i don't know how to do your job, let alone mine
so please, if i tell you to do something
or i tell you something can be done later
for the love of god, just ignore me
always just ask a manager, because they're infallible
they will never steer you wrong, and know all things
and i'm just a lying, moronic supervisor
I HATE THE MANAGERS SO GODDAMN MUCH
only two more weeks till the election
then only two and a half months till inauguration
then only two years till the next legislative elections
then only four years till the next federal elections
then only the rest of my life until i could actually give a damn
so fucking tired of hearing about it
i need some booze, and about two days to sleep
also, someone to just fall asleep with/next to
but that's an emo rant even i don't want to hear
so, in lieu of all those
i will have some junk food, sleep about 5 hours
and sleep next to my body pillow
which just happens to be incredibly soft and warm
to reverse the continuous downward slide of my posts
i leave you with this little anecdote/plan:
andy and i have decided we need to have a penguin
not just any penguin, we'll have you know
this penguin, will be a butler penguin
he will also have attack capabilities with attachable weapons
we will teach him to say the phrase 'penguin made a sticky'
he will also be well schooled in the game of jump rope
his name is still in the works, but it will be an epic one
the english equivalent? hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia
so, hell week has finally began
the plus side?
this time next week it will be completely done with
the down side?
that's another 168 hours from now
fuck
though, class wise, this week should be relatively light
here's fucking hoping
also, this is a general note for everyone
everyone who has worked/works with me:
never listen to anything i tell you
apparently i'm completely stupid
so stupid, in fact, i don't know how to do your job, let alone mine
so please, if i tell you to do something
or i tell you something can be done later
for the love of god, just ignore me
always just ask a manager, because they're infallible
they will never steer you wrong, and know all things
and i'm just a lying, moronic supervisor
I HATE THE MANAGERS SO GODDAMN MUCH
only two more weeks till the election
then only two and a half months till inauguration
then only two years till the next legislative elections
then only four years till the next federal elections
then only the rest of my life until i could actually give a damn
so fucking tired of hearing about it
i need some booze, and about two days to sleep
also, someone to just fall asleep with/next to
but that's an emo rant even i don't want to hear
so, in lieu of all those
i will have some junk food, sleep about 5 hours
and sleep next to my body pillow
which just happens to be incredibly soft and warm
to reverse the continuous downward slide of my posts
i leave you with this little anecdote/plan:
andy and i have decided we need to have a penguin
not just any penguin, we'll have you know
this penguin, will be a butler penguin
he will also have attack capabilities with attachable weapons
we will teach him to say the phrase 'penguin made a sticky'
he will also be well schooled in the game of jump rope
his name is still in the works, but it will be an epic one
10/5/08
¡joe biden!
easily the most amusing part of the vp debate:
joe biden referring to himself in the third person at least thrice
i really need to think of a decent topic for my history honors option
what with my first kinda topic being shot down
damn him and his specificity and pickiness
honest to god
even though i hate getting up early for any reason
i should probly open the caf more often
sure as hell beats closing all the time
i have an unusually specific anxiety about the upcoming play
and its pretty disconcerting
oh well
it'll happen or it won't, nothing i can do
i've become more social with the guys on my floor?
good thing? bad thing?
up for speculation i suppose
but its pretty decent to have friends who are neighbors
[speaking of neighbors
we really need to weld the door to 2 north shut
very, very soon]
i believe my angry work demeanor may be shifting slightly
i gave my commons workers donuts tonight
along with the two over at brimstone
on second thought, i doubt that it is
cuz i can still go on forever about those i hate
and how i'd like to kill them and dispose of their bodies
i've been really irritated lately
i'm in a very creative mood lately
i've had some [i thought] decent ideas for short stories
but i just can't get anywhere with them
it fucking drives me insane when that happens
perhaps another creative depression is in order
i really need to start doing russian homework again
i haven't done any for at least two weeks
the more often i go to improv practices
the more i feel i don't really say much that's funny
at least not on the fly
i just feel like i'm yelling profanity a lot
that or slinging slurs at someone
neither are necessarily bad
but they're usually not very funny
sometimes i wonder if i'm qualified to teach history
not because i don't think i'll teach well
but because i'm always afraid what i know is subjective
that or its just plain wrong
i dunno why, but it always fucking happens
in every single history class i've had
i always get apprehensive that what i know is wrong
even if its impossible for that to be the case
i think i need to lay off the ink for a while
its not causing any problems
but i've been having some every day
and thats not a good habit to have
and i'm done
joe biden referring to himself in the third person at least thrice
i really need to think of a decent topic for my history honors option
what with my first kinda topic being shot down
damn him and his specificity and pickiness
honest to god
even though i hate getting up early for any reason
i should probly open the caf more often
sure as hell beats closing all the time
i have an unusually specific anxiety about the upcoming play
and its pretty disconcerting
oh well
it'll happen or it won't, nothing i can do
i've become more social with the guys on my floor?
good thing? bad thing?
up for speculation i suppose
but its pretty decent to have friends who are neighbors
[speaking of neighbors
we really need to weld the door to 2 north shut
very, very soon]
i believe my angry work demeanor may be shifting slightly
i gave my commons workers donuts tonight
along with the two over at brimstone
on second thought, i doubt that it is
cuz i can still go on forever about those i hate
and how i'd like to kill them and dispose of their bodies
i've been really irritated lately
i'm in a very creative mood lately
i've had some [i thought] decent ideas for short stories
but i just can't get anywhere with them
it fucking drives me insane when that happens
perhaps another creative depression is in order
i really need to start doing russian homework again
i haven't done any for at least two weeks
the more often i go to improv practices
the more i feel i don't really say much that's funny
at least not on the fly
i just feel like i'm yelling profanity a lot
that or slinging slurs at someone
neither are necessarily bad
but they're usually not very funny
sometimes i wonder if i'm qualified to teach history
not because i don't think i'll teach well
but because i'm always afraid what i know is subjective
that or its just plain wrong
i dunno why, but it always fucking happens
in every single history class i've had
i always get apprehensive that what i know is wrong
even if its impossible for that to be the case
i think i need to lay off the ink for a while
its not causing any problems
but i've been having some every day
and thats not a good habit to have
and i'm done
9/20/08
uzhasnyj
and now, because i can
some dead baby jokes
[mostly because i'm a horrible person]:
how do keep a baby from crawling in a circle?
nail its other hand to the floor
how do you make a baby float?
take your foot off its head
whats blue, red, and crawling up your leg?
an aborted baby trying to go home
whats worse than a baby?
a dead baby
whats worse than a dead baby?
a pile of dead babies
whats worse than a pile of dead babies?
a pile of dead babies with a live baby underneath
whats worse than a pile of dead babies with a live baby underneath?
a pile of dead babies with a live baby underneath eating its way out
what 11 inches long, stiff, and makes women scream at night?
a sids baby
how are babies and popcorn alike?
they both pop if they're microwaved long enough
what's funnier than a dead baby?
a dead baby in clown costume
whats brown and gurgles?
a baby casserole
how can you keep a baby from falling down a manhole?
shove a javelin through its head
how many babies does it take to paint a barn?
depends on how hard you throw them
how do you fit ten babies in a glass?
put them in the blender
why do you unload a truckful of dead babies with a pitchfork?
so you can tell which ones are still alive
some dead baby jokes
[mostly because i'm a horrible person]:
how do keep a baby from crawling in a circle?
nail its other hand to the floor
how do you make a baby float?
take your foot off its head
whats blue, red, and crawling up your leg?
an aborted baby trying to go home
whats worse than a baby?
a dead baby
whats worse than a dead baby?
a pile of dead babies
whats worse than a pile of dead babies?
a pile of dead babies with a live baby underneath
whats worse than a pile of dead babies with a live baby underneath?
a pile of dead babies with a live baby underneath eating its way out
what 11 inches long, stiff, and makes women scream at night?
a sids baby
how are babies and popcorn alike?
they both pop if they're microwaved long enough
what's funnier than a dead baby?
a dead baby in clown costume
whats brown and gurgles?
a baby casserole
how can you keep a baby from falling down a manhole?
shove a javelin through its head
how many babies does it take to paint a barn?
depends on how hard you throw them
how do you fit ten babies in a glass?
put them in the blender
why do you unload a truckful of dead babies with a pitchfork?
so you can tell which ones are still alive
9/11/08
hymn
i know it seems cliché
but i could honestly give a damn
i'll probly always feel the need to say something
it may not be much, it may not be meaningful
but i still feel like i should say something
it's not something any of us will be able to forget, yeah?
our parents have those moments
so do our grandparents
our children will someday too, its how it goes
i'd love to forget it someday, but i won't
neither will anyone else
so i guess all i can say is remember it
because if we forget, we'll make the same mistakes
and it'll happen again, but it'll be much worse
here's hoping
in memoriam, victims of september 11, 2001
спасение соделал еси посреде земли, боже. аллилуия.
but i could honestly give a damn
i'll probly always feel the need to say something
it may not be much, it may not be meaningful
but i still feel like i should say something
it's not something any of us will be able to forget, yeah?
our parents have those moments
so do our grandparents
our children will someday too, its how it goes
i'd love to forget it someday, but i won't
neither will anyone else
so i guess all i can say is remember it
because if we forget, we'll make the same mistakes
and it'll happen again, but it'll be much worse
here's hoping
in memoriam, victims of september 11, 2001
спасение соделал еси посреде земли, боже. аллилуия.
8/19/08
ผัดไทย
so katie came down on saturday
she wanted to check out the campus
i showed her around a bit
took her to most of the sights
she really seemed to take too it
perhaps i may have made a new spartan?
we'll see
what struck me, though, was when we ate
i took her over to noodles & c.
they have incredibly good pad thai.
pad thai like i haven't had since living in n/l
anyway, while we were eating
she said to me that i actually seemed happier
happier than i have been in a long time
and that it kinda surprised her
it sounds stupid, but she's right
i really do like living here, and it shows
she wanted to check out the campus
i showed her around a bit
took her to most of the sights
she really seemed to take too it
perhaps i may have made a new spartan?
we'll see
what struck me, though, was when we ate
i took her over to noodles & c.
they have incredibly good pad thai.
pad thai like i haven't had since living in n/l
anyway, while we were eating
she said to me that i actually seemed happier
happier than i have been in a long time
and that it kinda surprised her
it sounds stupid, but she's right
i really do like living here, and it shows
8/12/08
идиот
jeheezus christ
today, after getting up at 7`30 [unheard of]
i was clocked in for 14 1/2 hours
14 1/2!
7 of that was training
the rest was working on the floor
shit my legs hurt
but, by my calculations
it comes to $108.75 for today
[almost] well worth it
today, after getting up at 7`30 [unheard of]
i was clocked in for 14 1/2 hours
14 1/2!
7 of that was training
the rest was working on the floor
shit my legs hurt
but, by my calculations
it comes to $108.75 for today
[almost] well worth it
8/10/08
epic fail
summertime? the livin' ain't easy, not for me
this summer? it blows
this is what i've managed to accomplish:
—i've beaten 18 video games [likely about 14 games, i beat some twice]
—i had no jobs [i applied for ten]
—i manage to blow in excess of $1000 this summer, a new personal best
—i've read all of two books, while i bought over two dozen
[to be fair, i read those two books within the last three weeks]
—i've gained at least 25 pounds, probly more
—i've also gotten paler [yes it is possible]
i only have two positive things i can say for summer '08:
i discovered a new composer, and i finally got san andreas
ok, three:
i'll be at state for another year
not a positive as much as an incredible mercy
i need to live somewhere where there is no summer
its unnecessary and i don't enjoy it
perhaps sweden, or maybe alaska
this summer? it blows
this is what i've managed to accomplish:
—i've beaten 18 video games [likely about 14 games, i beat some twice]
—i had no jobs [i applied for ten]
—i manage to blow in excess of $1000 this summer, a new personal best
—i've read all of two books, while i bought over two dozen
[to be fair, i read those two books within the last three weeks]
—i've gained at least 25 pounds, probly more
—i've also gotten paler [yes it is possible]
i only have two positive things i can say for summer '08:
i discovered a new composer, and i finally got san andreas
ok, three:
i'll be at state for another year
not a positive as much as an incredible mercy
i need to live somewhere where there is no summer
its unnecessary and i don't enjoy it
perhaps sweden, or maybe alaska
7/22/08
eden roc
its a weird news week
–they finally found radovan karadžić, of all people... apparently he was hiding in belgrade as a practicing doctor for 13 years, [for those who don't know, he's a bosnian politician who's been charged with committing war crimes during the bosnian civil war in the 90s]
–zimbabwe introduced a new currency: the 100 billion dollar note [currently the exchange rate for $1 US is 425,276,250,000 zimbabwean dollars]
–the first ever nepali presidential election was won by ram baran yadav of the nepali congress party [a centrist democratic socialism party], only two months after the communist party of nepal abolished nepal's 240 monarchy
–estelle getty died [apparently she had dementia]
–paul mccartney of all people told the parti québécois to 'smoke the pipes of peace and to just put away your hatchets', and was received with upset and hostility when he arrived in montreal to play for the 400th anniversary of quebec city [the parti québécois is internationally known for its attempts to gain national sovereignty and secede from canada]
–christian bale was arrested and released on bail for allegations that he assaulted his mother and sister [he was arrested in london]
–a man in jerusalem went on a rampage while driving a backhoe, and rammed into cars and buses before being shot and killed by border police
–the first trial of salim hamdan [former driver for osama bin laden] began in guantanamo bay, with hamdan pleading not guilty to charges of conspiracy and supporting terrorism
–a case was brought forward in may by three citizens of the greek island of lesbos allegating that the term 'lesbian' referring to gay women was an insult to their identity and asked that it be banned. a judge in athens saw it differently, and ruled against them
–a man who was angry about a proposed third runway an heathrow airport in london superglued himself to gordon brown, the english prime minister. when that failed, he tried to glue himself to the gates of downing street, but he didn't have enough glue
–in iran, a man and eight woman have been sentenced to death by stoning for committing adultery [iranian law states that men must be buried up to the waist and women up to the chest before being stoned, and the rocks must not be big enough to kill the person immediately]
–researchers from chichester university in england discovered that being a drummer in a rock band is the equivalent of being a top athlete; drummers tested had heart rates around 190 bpm after 90 minutes of playing, and an hour in concert can burn up to 600 calories [smith also the stamina of rock drummers needs to be outstanding since they can play hundreds of concerts a year, while athletes play only once or twice week for the duration of their season]
–they finally found radovan karadžić, of all people... apparently he was hiding in belgrade as a practicing doctor for 13 years, [for those who don't know, he's a bosnian politician who's been charged with committing war crimes during the bosnian civil war in the 90s]
–zimbabwe introduced a new currency: the 100 billion dollar note [currently the exchange rate for $1 US is 425,276,250,000 zimbabwean dollars]
–the first ever nepali presidential election was won by ram baran yadav of the nepali congress party [a centrist democratic socialism party], only two months after the communist party of nepal abolished nepal's 240 monarchy
–estelle getty died [apparently she had dementia]
–paul mccartney of all people told the parti québécois to 'smoke the pipes of peace and to just put away your hatchets', and was received with upset and hostility when he arrived in montreal to play for the 400th anniversary of quebec city [the parti québécois is internationally known for its attempts to gain national sovereignty and secede from canada]
–christian bale was arrested and released on bail for allegations that he assaulted his mother and sister [he was arrested in london]
–a man in jerusalem went on a rampage while driving a backhoe, and rammed into cars and buses before being shot and killed by border police
–the first trial of salim hamdan [former driver for osama bin laden] began in guantanamo bay, with hamdan pleading not guilty to charges of conspiracy and supporting terrorism
–a case was brought forward in may by three citizens of the greek island of lesbos allegating that the term 'lesbian' referring to gay women was an insult to their identity and asked that it be banned. a judge in athens saw it differently, and ruled against them
–a man who was angry about a proposed third runway an heathrow airport in london superglued himself to gordon brown, the english prime minister. when that failed, he tried to glue himself to the gates of downing street, but he didn't have enough glue
–in iran, a man and eight woman have been sentenced to death by stoning for committing adultery [iranian law states that men must be buried up to the waist and women up to the chest before being stoned, and the rocks must not be big enough to kill the person immediately]
–researchers from chichester university in england discovered that being a drummer in a rock band is the equivalent of being a top athlete; drummers tested had heart rates around 190 bpm after 90 minutes of playing, and an hour in concert can burn up to 600 calories [smith also the stamina of rock drummers needs to be outstanding since they can play hundreds of concerts a year, while athletes play only once or twice week for the duration of their season]
7/10/08
小辛
its just like him
to wander off in the evergreen park
slowly searching
for any sign of the ones he used to love
he says he's got nothing left to live for
and this time i think you'll know
she's just like him
spoiled rotten, confused by the lies she's been fed
and she's searching for no one but herself
her eyes turn to green
and she seems to be happy that she is here
and this time i think you'll know
you're not alone
there is more to this i know
you can make it out
you will live to tell
you are not alone
you're not, you're not
alone
to wander off in the evergreen park
slowly searching
for any sign of the ones he used to love
he says he's got nothing left to live for
and this time i think you'll know
she's just like him
spoiled rotten, confused by the lies she's been fed
and she's searching for no one but herself
her eyes turn to green
and she seems to be happy that she is here
and this time i think you'll know
you're not alone
there is more to this i know
you can make it out
you will live to tell
you are not alone
you're not, you're not
alone
6/15/08
6/4/08
πλασίμπο
it doesn't hurt me
you want to feel how it feels?
you want to know, know that it doesn't hurt me?
you want to hear about the deal i'm making?
you don't want to hurt me
but see how deep the bullet lies
unaware that i'm tearing you asunder
there's a thunder in our hearts, baby
so much hate for the ones we love
tell me, we both matter, don't we?
you, you and me, won't be unhappy
come on baby, come on, come one darling
let me steal this moment from you now
come on angel, come on, come on darling
let's exchange the experience
and if i only could
make a deal with god
get him to swap our places
be running up that road
be running up that hill
be running up that building
with no problems
if i only could
you want to feel how it feels?
you want to know, know that it doesn't hurt me?
you want to hear about the deal i'm making?
you don't want to hurt me
but see how deep the bullet lies
unaware that i'm tearing you asunder
there's a thunder in our hearts, baby
so much hate for the ones we love
tell me, we both matter, don't we?
you, you and me, won't be unhappy
come on baby, come on, come one darling
let me steal this moment from you now
come on angel, come on, come on darling
let's exchange the experience
and if i only could
make a deal with god
get him to swap our places
be running up that road
be running up that hill
be running up that building
with no problems
if i only could
5/29/08
holãdiós
i like where we are
when we drive, in your car
i like where we are...here
cause our lips can touch
and our cheeks can brush
our lips can touch..here
i like where you sleep
when you sleep, next to me
i like where you sleep...here
well you are the one, the one that lies close to me
whispers 'hello, i miss you quite terribly'
i fell in love, in love with you suddenly
now there's no place else i could be but here in your arms
when we drive, in your car
i like where we are...here
cause our lips can touch
and our cheeks can brush
our lips can touch..here
i like where you sleep
when you sleep, next to me
i like where you sleep...here
well you are the one, the one that lies close to me
whispers 'hello, i miss you quite terribly'
i fell in love, in love with you suddenly
now there's no place else i could be but here in your arms
5/26/08
ボウイ
ground control to major tom
take your protein pills and put your helmet on
ground control to major tom
commencing countdown, engines on
check ignition and may god's love be with you
ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three, two, one, liftoff
this is ground control to major tom
you've really made the grade
and the papers want to know whose shirts you wear
now it's time to leave the capsule if you dare
this is major tom to ground control
i'm stepping through the door
and i'm floating in a most peculiar way
and the stars look very different today
for here
am i sitting in a tin can
far above the world
planet earth is blue
and there's nothing i can do
though i'm past one hundred thousand miles
i'm feeling very still
and my spaceship knows which way to go
tell my wife i love her...she knows
ground control to major tom
your circuit's dead, there's something wrong
can you hear me major tom?
can you hear me major tom?
can you....
here am i floating round my tin can
far above the moon
planet earth is blue
and there's nothing i can do
take your protein pills and put your helmet on
ground control to major tom
commencing countdown, engines on
check ignition and may god's love be with you
ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three, two, one, liftoff
this is ground control to major tom
you've really made the grade
and the papers want to know whose shirts you wear
now it's time to leave the capsule if you dare
this is major tom to ground control
i'm stepping through the door
and i'm floating in a most peculiar way
and the stars look very different today
for here
am i sitting in a tin can
far above the world
planet earth is blue
and there's nothing i can do
though i'm past one hundred thousand miles
i'm feeling very still
and my spaceship knows which way to go
tell my wife i love her...she knows
ground control to major tom
your circuit's dead, there's something wrong
can you hear me major tom?
can you hear me major tom?
can you....
here am i floating round my tin can
far above the moon
planet earth is blue
and there's nothing i can do
5/22/08
гробан
i watch the morning dawn upon your skin
a splinter in the light
it caught and frayed the very heart of us
it's been hiding there inside for all this time
how a sure thing winds up just like this
clockwork silence only knows
sweeping eggshells still at 3 am
we're trying far too hard
the tattered though balloons above our heads
sinking in the weight of all we need to say
why's and what if's have since long played out
left us short on happy endings
and it's no one's fault
there's no black and white
only you and me
on this endless night
and as the hours run away
with another life
oh, darling can't you see
its now or never
you know there's so much more
a splinter in the light
it caught and frayed the very heart of us
it's been hiding there inside for all this time
how a sure thing winds up just like this
clockwork silence only knows
sweeping eggshells still at 3 am
we're trying far too hard
the tattered though balloons above our heads
sinking in the weight of all we need to say
why's and what if's have since long played out
left us short on happy endings
and it's no one's fault
there's no black and white
only you and me
on this endless night
and as the hours run away
with another life
oh, darling can't you see
its now or never
you know there's so much more
5/6/08
lament
fanuilos heryn aglar
rîn athat annún-aearath
calad ammen i reniar
mi'aladhremmin ennorath
a elbereth gilthoniel
i chîn a thûl lin míriel
fanuilos le linnathon
ne ndor haer thar i aearon
a elin na gaim eglerib
ned în ben-anor trerennin
si silivrin ne pherth 'waewib
cenim lyth thílyn thueinnin
a elbereth gilthoniel
men echenim sí derthiel
ne chaered hed nu'aladhath
ngilith or annún-aearath
rîn athat annún-aearath
calad ammen i reniar
mi'aladhremmin ennorath
a elbereth gilthoniel
i chîn a thûl lin míriel
fanuilos le linnathon
ne ndor haer thar i aearon
a elin na gaim eglerib
ned în ben-anor trerennin
si silivrin ne pherth 'waewib
cenim lyth thílyn thueinnin
a elbereth gilthoniel
men echenim sí derthiel
ne chaered hed nu'aladhath
ngilith or annún-aearath
4/27/08
caída
son, you've got a way to fall
they'll tell you where to go,
but they won't know
son, you better take it all
they'll tell you what they know,
but they won't show
son, you've got a way to kill
they're picking on you still,
but they don't know
son, you'd better wait to shine
they'll tell you what is yours,
but they'll take mine
oh, i've got something in my throat
i need to be alone
while i suffer
oh, there's a hole inside my boat
and i need to stay afloat
for the summer
they'll tell you where to go,
but they won't know
son, you better take it all
they'll tell you what they know,
but they won't show
son, you've got a way to kill
they're picking on you still,
but they don't know
son, you'd better wait to shine
they'll tell you what is yours,
but they'll take mine
oh, i've got something in my throat
i need to be alone
while i suffer
oh, there's a hole inside my boat
and i need to stay afloat
for the summer
4/21/08
þrēo
they painted up your secrets
with the lies they told to you
and the least they ever gave you
was the most you ever knew
and i wonder where these dreams go
when the world gets in your way
what's the point in all this screaming
no one's listening anyway
your voice is small and fading
and you're hiding here alone
and your mother loves you father
cuz she's got nowhere to go
and she wonders where these dreams go
cuz the world got in her way
what's the point in ever trying
nothing's changing anyway
they press their lips against you
and you love the lies they say
and i tried to so hard to reach you
but you're falling anyway
and you know i see right through you
cuz the world gets in your way
what's the point in all this screaming
you're not listening anyway
with the lies they told to you
and the least they ever gave you
was the most you ever knew
and i wonder where these dreams go
when the world gets in your way
what's the point in all this screaming
no one's listening anyway
your voice is small and fading
and you're hiding here alone
and your mother loves you father
cuz she's got nowhere to go
and she wonders where these dreams go
cuz the world got in her way
what's the point in ever trying
nothing's changing anyway
they press their lips against you
and you love the lies they say
and i tried to so hard to reach you
but you're falling anyway
and you know i see right through you
cuz the world gets in your way
what's the point in all this screaming
you're not listening anyway
4/20/08
mclean
i heard he sang a good song
i heard he had a style
and so i came to see him
to listen for a while
and there he was, this young boy
stranger to my eyes
i felt all flushed with fever
embarrassed by the crowd
i felt he'd found my letters
and read each one out loud
i prayed that he would finish
but he just kept right on
he sang as if he knew me
in all my dark despair
and then he looked right through me
as if i wasn't there
but he was there
this stranger, singing clear and loud
strumming my pain with his fingers
singing my life with his words
killing me softly with his song
telling my whole life with his words
killing me softly with his song
i heard he had a style
and so i came to see him
to listen for a while
and there he was, this young boy
stranger to my eyes
i felt all flushed with fever
embarrassed by the crowd
i felt he'd found my letters
and read each one out loud
i prayed that he would finish
but he just kept right on
he sang as if he knew me
in all my dark despair
and then he looked right through me
as if i wasn't there
but he was there
this stranger, singing clear and loud
strumming my pain with his fingers
singing my life with his words
killing me softly with his song
telling my whole life with his words
killing me softly with his song
4/16/08
брежонэг
[disregard]
i was told something this morning that struck me oddly
i was talking to jill, and she told me
'you're one of those people i can just talk to
and you'll make me feel better'
she's not the first to say that to me
and probly won't be the last
but it still hits me right between the eyes
i think because its such a turnaround from a few years ago
before sophomore year in high school
no one came to me for anything
i was never the person people came to talk to
i never minded that [most of them i wouldn't want to listen to]
but that was the way it was for so long
and now, in the past fours years
i've somehow become the person to go to
i dunno how it happened
nothing i can really do about it, i guess
i dunno why any of that was really worth mentioning either
i guess it isn't
so tired, and andresen is so boring
fucking geography
i was told something this morning that struck me oddly
i was talking to jill, and she told me
'you're one of those people i can just talk to
and you'll make me feel better'
she's not the first to say that to me
and probly won't be the last
but it still hits me right between the eyes
i think because its such a turnaround from a few years ago
before sophomore year in high school
no one came to me for anything
i was never the person people came to talk to
i never minded that [most of them i wouldn't want to listen to]
but that was the way it was for so long
and now, in the past fours years
i've somehow become the person to go to
i dunno how it happened
nothing i can really do about it, i guess
i dunno why any of that was really worth mentioning either
i guess it isn't
so tired, and andresen is so boring
fucking geography
brezhoneg
the amount of sleep i've had in the past two days:
low, even for me
plus tonight, i'll be somewhere around 11 hours since sunday
apparently, all level IIs have to go to training on saturday
training, i'm told, that will last FIVE FUCKING HOURS
i hardly care enough to keep showing up for my damn shifts
and now this?
i don't care that i'm being paid to go to this
i'm still going to be bored out of my fucking mind
as if the videos weren't bad enough
concert was tonight
had to borrow a shirt from jim, since my white one is way too big
went to dublin square afterwards
ended up staying for about two hours [go figure]
i also listened the 'furioso and valse' when i got back,
i hate when i remind myself about when i could still play percussion
son of a bitch, i was really good once upon a time
not anymore
john hill would be so disappointed
and of course, listening to just one thing from my band cds
i end up back on 'on a hymnsong of philip bliss'
i'll be damned if it doesn't always make me think of mr anderson
and how i'll never forgive myself for lying to him the last time i saw him
s'hard to stomach sometimes that he's gone
fuck
i've seen fucking 3`15 every goddamn day for two fucking weeks
i'm tired of it
low, even for me
plus tonight, i'll be somewhere around 11 hours since sunday
apparently, all level IIs have to go to training on saturday
training, i'm told, that will last FIVE FUCKING HOURS
i hardly care enough to keep showing up for my damn shifts
and now this?
i don't care that i'm being paid to go to this
i'm still going to be bored out of my fucking mind
as if the videos weren't bad enough
concert was tonight
had to borrow a shirt from jim, since my white one is way too big
went to dublin square afterwards
ended up staying for about two hours [go figure]
i also listened the 'furioso and valse' when i got back,
i hate when i remind myself about when i could still play percussion
son of a bitch, i was really good once upon a time
not anymore
john hill would be so disappointed
and of course, listening to just one thing from my band cds
i end up back on 'on a hymnsong of philip bliss'
i'll be damned if it doesn't always make me think of mr anderson
and how i'll never forgive myself for lying to him the last time i saw him
s'hard to stomach sometimes that he's gone
fuck
i've seen fucking 3`15 every goddamn day for two fucking weeks
i'm tired of it
4/13/08
リトアニア語
it was like a rollercoaster this week
felt good about the paper
actually, about classes in general
but about everything else i felt/feel like shit
some jackasses keep fucking with our whiteboard
and its really pissing me off
ripping it off the door was one thing
but smashing it apart for no reason is another
and they did it again today
came back from work, damn thing was on the floor down the hall
so fucking stupid
i can't wait to away from some of these dipshits
today at work, i was by the host station ignoring farva
when someone said something i didn't catch
and i said 'что?' [means 'what' in russian]
and one of the guys who had just walked in
looks at me and says hi in russian
turns out he's from lithuania and his buddy's from siberia
oh the random events at the gallery
they were pretty cool guys
talking about how there are never any pretty russian girls in america
guess rossiya's keeping them all to herself
i feel kinda bad for andy
he's had a couple shitty days in a row
he's at home now, probly sleeping
hopefully, at least, since he was up for over 24 hours last time i saw him
maybe next week will be a little better for him
if nothing else, the semester's almost over
felt good about the paper
actually, about classes in general
but about everything else i felt/feel like shit
some jackasses keep fucking with our whiteboard
and its really pissing me off
ripping it off the door was one thing
but smashing it apart for no reason is another
and they did it again today
came back from work, damn thing was on the floor down the hall
so fucking stupid
i can't wait to away from some of these dipshits
today at work, i was by the host station ignoring farva
when someone said something i didn't catch
and i said 'что?' [means 'what' in russian]
and one of the guys who had just walked in
looks at me and says hi in russian
turns out he's from lithuania and his buddy's from siberia
oh the random events at the gallery
they were pretty cool guys
talking about how there are never any pretty russian girls in america
guess rossiya's keeping them all to herself
i feel kinda bad for andy
he's had a couple shitty days in a row
he's at home now, probly sleeping
hopefully, at least, since he was up for over 24 hours last time i saw him
maybe next week will be a little better for him
if nothing else, the semester's almost over
4/7/08
molossia
man, my hands are really dry and peeling
i love my job
i really don't know why i go to geography every monday
i really don't
its not like anything i'm learning is vitally important to anything i do
and its not like its incredibly interesting
soon enough, it'll be over
soon enough
god i am tired as shit
i really need to not sleep in till 4 pm on the weekends
it really fucks with me during the week
shit, i think i have a russian test tomorrow
at least my paper's done
i'm going to sleep when i get back
i love my job
i really don't know why i go to geography every monday
i really don't
its not like anything i'm learning is vitally important to anything i do
and its not like its incredibly interesting
soon enough, it'll be over
soon enough
god i am tired as shit
i really need to not sleep in till 4 pm on the weekends
it really fucks with me during the week
shit, i think i have a russian test tomorrow
at least my paper's done
i'm going to sleep when i get back
3/27/08
tacomama
looks like my weekend is setting itself up to be a fucking blast
–ibrary/research for my paper
–app/class schedules
–work
–studying for geography exam
–reading for three classes
i hate my writing professor
that is all
i'm debating whether i should take русский язык again next year
i don't really know what i'd take in place of it
possibly italian, or hebrew [if i'm feeling ridiculously brazen]
its nothing against russian, but i'd like to branch out linguistically
though i may just decide to stick with it another year
who the fuck knows
fictionpress is a ridiculous site
and by ridiculous, i mean that
I WANT TO DESTROY IT
the fucking text editor wouldn't work for me at all yesterday
at all
fuckin thing pisses me off, man
parts of it are so user-unfriendly
christ
–ibrary/research for my paper
–app/class schedules
–work
–studying for geography exam
–reading for three classes
i hate my writing professor
that is all
i'm debating whether i should take русский язык again next year
i don't really know what i'd take in place of it
possibly italian, or hebrew [if i'm feeling ridiculously brazen]
its nothing against russian, but i'd like to branch out linguistically
though i may just decide to stick with it another year
who the fuck knows
fictionpress is a ridiculous site
and by ridiculous, i mean that
I WANT TO DESTROY IT
the fucking text editor wouldn't work for me at all yesterday
at all
fuckin thing pisses me off, man
parts of it are so user-unfriendly
christ
3/24/08
köppen
man, i worked a lot yesterday
10-8 [minus an hour and a half in the middle]
wasn't too busy, though, and it is money
i'm in geography right now, and it is hell of boring
though i do have a quiz at some point
speaking of classes
i have to start getting my shit together for next year
i want to take as many reqs as i can
i just have to sit down and decide what i want to take
that and manage to get an appointment with my advisor[s]
i really, really need to get my paper done for history
i just hope i can come up with a good plot
otherwise, its really gonna suck
and if i'm gonna write a short story for a paper
it better be damn good, or i'm gonna feel like failure
moreso than i normally do
10-8 [minus an hour and a half in the middle]
wasn't too busy, though, and it is money
i'm in geography right now, and it is hell of boring
though i do have a quiz at some point
speaking of classes
i have to start getting my shit together for next year
i want to take as many reqs as i can
i just have to sit down and decide what i want to take
that and manage to get an appointment with my advisor[s]
i really, really need to get my paper done for history
i just hope i can come up with a good plot
otherwise, its really gonna suck
and if i'm gonna write a short story for a paper
it better be damn good, or i'm gonna feel like failure
moreso than i normally do
3/20/08
fail [not made of win]
¡anger!
fucking essay for my fucking writing class
stupid bitch is never satisfied
i hope she dies a horribly painful death
while i'm around, so i can point and laugh
i love thursdays
because i don't fucking work
speaking of work, my boots have finally been compromised
they aren't waterproof anymore
because their ripping along the seam
so i wrapped one of them with gorilla tape
and it amused andy greatly
woot for skipping русский язык
well, not really, cuz i should go
but i have to read a book for history
that i couldn't before
cuz of that damn paper
!regna¡
fucking essay for my fucking writing class
stupid bitch is never satisfied
i hope she dies a horribly painful death
while i'm around, so i can point and laugh
i love thursdays
because i don't fucking work
speaking of work, my boots have finally been compromised
they aren't waterproof anymore
because their ripping along the seam
so i wrapped one of them with gorilla tape
and it amused andy greatly
woot for skipping русский язык
well, not really, cuz i should go
but i have to read a book for history
that i couldn't before
cuz of that damn paper
!regna¡
3/17/08
cad
[chef brian] time. it holds us in its grasp like a giant koala with dentures. we are slaves. slaves to denture koala and his army of lightbulbs with feet. butternut pop-tarts are my favorite
[tomato] i am a giant tomato filled with love. i have come to sell you a house made of pancakes
[chef brian] and a garage made from the souls of little children?
[tomato] ...yes
[chef brian] HISSSSS!
[tomato] pork
[chef brian] the cactus shall call it stupendiferous! let us achieve!
[tomato] jubilation!
[chef brian] gasp!
[tomato] your flavor is maple
[chef brian] it's as beautiful as a newborn hubcap
[tomato] tell me your thoughts, that i may ingest them
[chef brian] i am thinking .... (imagine a fork fucking a spoon while the spoon says 'oh, fork me baby! fork me!
[tomato] my chewy center weeps
[chef brian] i shall live in these commodious cakes of the pan!
[chef brian] what must i do?!
[tomato] you know what you must do
[chef brian] what must i do?!
[tomato] you know what you must do
[chef brian] what must--
[tomato] DANCE!
[chef brian] little do you know that pudding is my middle name! your downfall is my winter coat! SHOCK!
[lightbulb with feet] begone. this is not for your brains
[tomato] i am a giant tomato filled with love. i have come to sell you a house made of pancakes
[chef brian] and a garage made from the souls of little children?
[tomato] ...yes
[chef brian] HISSSSS!
[tomato] pork
[chef brian] the cactus shall call it stupendiferous! let us achieve!
[tomato] jubilation!
[chef brian] gasp!
[tomato] your flavor is maple
[chef brian] it's as beautiful as a newborn hubcap
[tomato] tell me your thoughts, that i may ingest them
[chef brian] i am thinking .... (imagine a fork fucking a spoon while the spoon says 'oh, fork me baby! fork me!
[tomato] my chewy center weeps
[chef brian] i shall live in these commodious cakes of the pan!
[chef brian] what must i do?!
[tomato] you know what you must do
[chef brian] what must i do?!
[tomato] you know what you must do
[chef brian] what must--
[tomato] DANCE!
[chef brian] little do you know that pudding is my middle name! your downfall is my winter coat! SHOCK!
[lightbulb with feet] begone. this is not for your brains
3/16/08
the floating head of robert mitchum
so on the winds, we sail forth
on the sea of chalupas, CHALUPAS!
when out of the ocean
the great chalupa king
he comes with his mighty bolt
of electric lightning fury
my chalupas i defend!
from the king of the great chalupa sea
with his arms of modern steam powered engine of the future
6.99 for a value meal, 6.99 for a value meal
on the sea of chalupas, CHALUPAS!
when out of the ocean
the great chalupa king
he comes with his mighty bolt
of electric lightning fury
my chalupas i defend!
from the king of the great chalupa sea
with his arms of modern steam powered engine of the future
6.99 for a value meal, 6.99 for a value meal
3/10/08
balkanization
the seven rules of nationalism
[a beginner's guide to ethnic politics]
1] if an area was ours for 500 years and yours for 50 years,
it belongs to us– you are merely occupiers
2] if an area was yours for 500 years and ours for 50 years,
it belongs to us– borders must not be changed
3] if an area belong to us for 500 years but never since then,
it belongs to us– its the cradle of our nation
4] if a majority of our people live there,
it must belong to us– they must have the right of self-determination
5] if a minority of our people live there,
it must belong to us– they must be protected from your oppression
6] all of the above rules apply to us, but not to you
7] our dream is one one on historical necessity; yours is fascism
–unknown
i thought it was clever
but i'm sure i'm the only one
so never mind
[a beginner's guide to ethnic politics]
1] if an area was ours for 500 years and yours for 50 years,
it belongs to us– you are merely occupiers
2] if an area was yours for 500 years and ours for 50 years,
it belongs to us– borders must not be changed
3] if an area belong to us for 500 years but never since then,
it belongs to us– its the cradle of our nation
4] if a majority of our people live there,
it must belong to us– they must have the right of self-determination
5] if a minority of our people live there,
it must belong to us– they must be protected from your oppression
6] all of the above rules apply to us, but not to you
7] our dream is one one on historical necessity; yours is fascism
–unknown
i thought it was clever
but i'm sure i'm the only one
so never mind
3/9/08
djournå
the fact that i always have to log in twice bothers me
not all the time, and not always a lot
but its still irritating
i was going through some old notebooks today
and i came across my one from mcbride's class
i found part of the 'journal' entry i wrote that year
the topic was 'this is who i am and what i believe':
'i believe that every person should be allowed to be alone if they want to be
i believe that people have the right to tell their friends to f_ck off if they get on your nerves
i believe that being angry all your life will shorten your life considerably, but the good do die young
i believe that putting seniors and freshmen in the same class is blasphemy on par with adultery
i believe that once i'm in college, i will be happier overall
i believe that true friends are too rare to have five best friends in high school
i believe that being a zoroastrian is worth it just to get people to pronounce it
i believe that ignorance isn't bred
i believe that not being able to speak your mind on a regular basis will cause problems later in life
i believe that history is one of the most overlooked classes in education, because
i know that those who don't study history are doomed to repeat it
i believe that if you do not become accustomed to failure, or at least accepting of it
it will cause irreparable damage to your mental state when it catches up to you
and i believe that none of my beliefs will come to fruition
because people never want to change, or see the need to'
not all the time, and not always a lot
but its still irritating
i was going through some old notebooks today
and i came across my one from mcbride's class
i found part of the 'journal' entry i wrote that year
the topic was 'this is who i am and what i believe':
'i believe that every person should be allowed to be alone if they want to be
i believe that people have the right to tell their friends to f_ck off if they get on your nerves
i believe that being angry all your life will shorten your life considerably, but the good do die young
i believe that putting seniors and freshmen in the same class is blasphemy on par with adultery
i believe that once i'm in college, i will be happier overall
i believe that true friends are too rare to have five best friends in high school
i believe that being a zoroastrian is worth it just to get people to pronounce it
i believe that ignorance isn't bred
i believe that not being able to speak your mind on a regular basis will cause problems later in life
i believe that history is one of the most overlooked classes in education, because
i know that those who don't study history are doomed to repeat it
i believe that if you do not become accustomed to failure, or at least accepting of it
it will cause irreparable damage to your mental state when it catches up to you
and i believe that none of my beliefs will come to fruition
because people never want to change, or see the need to'
2/25/08
mōnandæg
i feel less like death now, which i suppose is good
last week sucked
its been a long time since i've felt that generally crappy
i'm still fighting some of it
i just wish i'd be sick and get it over with
i hate this drawn out crap
went to the dentist on friday
i didn't get a filling like i was supposed to
he says i either need a root canal or an extraction
fucking great
i got so many questions about the bandana i wore saturday
it was ridiculous, though somewhat amusing
i'm used to having my watch on all the time
and my watch band broke
so i wear my bandana on that wrist now
i did it during tennis too
just a habit i got into
at least three people asked me if i had turned emo
another asked if i started cutting myself
morons
i wonder how long it will take for the fighting to begin again in kosovo
i guarantee it'll happen
serbia's eventually gonna get tired of diplomacy
and take it over by force
and then all hell will break loose
last week sucked
its been a long time since i've felt that generally crappy
i'm still fighting some of it
i just wish i'd be sick and get it over with
i hate this drawn out crap
went to the dentist on friday
i didn't get a filling like i was supposed to
he says i either need a root canal or an extraction
fucking great
i got so many questions about the bandana i wore saturday
it was ridiculous, though somewhat amusing
i'm used to having my watch on all the time
and my watch band broke
so i wear my bandana on that wrist now
i did it during tennis too
just a habit i got into
at least three people asked me if i had turned emo
another asked if i started cutting myself
morons
i wonder how long it will take for the fighting to begin again in kosovo
i guarantee it'll happen
serbia's eventually gonna get tired of diplomacy
and take it over by force
and then all hell will break loose
2/18/08
svartþröstur
god i'm tired as hell
i wonder how long it'll take for me to get sick
half the people i know are sick with something
only a matter of time before it gets to me
there were so many people working tonight
it was bizarre
and yet, hilary still found tons of shit that wasn't done
it always makes me feel like a bad sup when she does
or when any of them do
i just feel like i'm doing a really crappy job
which i probly am
but it doesn't help when they keep pointing this stuff out
its been a very gray weekend
in terms of how i've felt, not necessarily the weather
though i did really like the weather today
nice and rainy, with the blue/gray sky
made me feel a little better, anyway
whatever i can get, i guess
i should probly keep this short
since i need to be up soon for geography
but i really feel like something is looming
i dunno if its good or bad
but it really feels like something's waiting off in the distance
i wish i knew what it was
i wonder how long it'll take for me to get sick
half the people i know are sick with something
only a matter of time before it gets to me
there were so many people working tonight
it was bizarre
and yet, hilary still found tons of shit that wasn't done
it always makes me feel like a bad sup when she does
or when any of them do
i just feel like i'm doing a really crappy job
which i probly am
but it doesn't help when they keep pointing this stuff out
its been a very gray weekend
in terms of how i've felt, not necessarily the weather
though i did really like the weather today
nice and rainy, with the blue/gray sky
made me feel a little better, anyway
whatever i can get, i guess
i should probly keep this short
since i need to be up soon for geography
but i really feel like something is looming
i dunno if its good or bad
but it really feels like something's waiting off in the distance
i wish i knew what it was
2/16/08
ハレルヤ
somehow everything's gonna fall
right in to place
if we only had a way to make it all
fall faster every day
if only time flew like a dove
god make it fly
faster than i'm falling in love
this time we're not giving up
let's make it last forever
screaming hallelujah
we'll make it last forever
holding on to patience wearing thin
i can't for these eyes to see the end
if only time flew like a dove
we could watch it fly
and just keep looking up
and we've got time on our hands
got nothing but time on our hands
this time we're not giving up
let's make it last forever
screaming hallelujah, hallelujah
right in to place
if we only had a way to make it all
fall faster every day
if only time flew like a dove
god make it fly
faster than i'm falling in love
this time we're not giving up
let's make it last forever
screaming hallelujah
we'll make it last forever
holding on to patience wearing thin
i can't for these eyes to see the end
if only time flew like a dove
we could watch it fly
and just keep looking up
and we've got time on our hands
got nothing but time on our hands
this time we're not giving up
let's make it last forever
screaming hallelujah, hallelujah
2/11/08
magyarok
i hope every single person
who sends out emails about getting their shifts covered
gets struck by lightning and dies
EVERY SINGLE ONE
god they're irritating
speaking of people at the gallery
i'd really appreciate it if they'd quit trying to hook me up
i mean, christ, i go there to work
not be a contestant on a dating show
jesus
riddle me this, people
if there are plenty of tables to sit at
and open booths to sit at
including one right next to where you're currently sitting
why would you feel the need to encroach on others?
seriously
i'm sitting at a booth right now
and there was [and still is] an empty booth right next to me
and yet, this group of people still felt the desire
no, the NEED
to sit at the same booth i do
and proceed to raucously converse
i hope they die
by the way, its not that they're conversing
the conversing is just annoying
they're having fucking pseudo-intellectual
bullshit philosophical questions, trying to be smart
'what do you think about love', 'why are we here'
all that standard existential bullshit
and they had the most neurotically stupid answers
they were completely off base with their arguments
one dumbass tried contrasting it with a salt shaker
then the girl tried to contrast his contrast
and it was ridiculous
and, in addition to all of that
they were louder than FUCK
i had my ipod turned all the way up
blasting techno in my ear, because
i thought nothing could get through
nothing cuts through THOOMP THOOMP THOOMP
not when its right in your ear
well, guess what, it did
i hope they all get raped with red hot fire pokers
get 3rd degree burns
and die a hideously painful death
while being slowly carved up with rusty steak knives
so they can get tetanus on the way to their demise
who sends out emails about getting their shifts covered
gets struck by lightning and dies
EVERY SINGLE ONE
god they're irritating
speaking of people at the gallery
i'd really appreciate it if they'd quit trying to hook me up
i mean, christ, i go there to work
not be a contestant on a dating show
jesus
riddle me this, people
if there are plenty of tables to sit at
and open booths to sit at
including one right next to where you're currently sitting
why would you feel the need to encroach on others?
seriously
i'm sitting at a booth right now
and there was [and still is] an empty booth right next to me
and yet, this group of people still felt the desire
no, the NEED
to sit at the same booth i do
and proceed to raucously converse
i hope they die
by the way, its not that they're conversing
the conversing is just annoying
they're having fucking pseudo-intellectual
bullshit philosophical questions, trying to be smart
'what do you think about love', 'why are we here'
all that standard existential bullshit
and they had the most neurotically stupid answers
they were completely off base with their arguments
one dumbass tried contrasting it with a salt shaker
then the girl tried to contrast his contrast
and it was ridiculous
and, in addition to all of that
they were louder than FUCK
i had my ipod turned all the way up
blasting techno in my ear, because
i thought nothing could get through
nothing cuts through THOOMP THOOMP THOOMP
not when its right in your ear
well, guess what, it did
i hope they all get raped with red hot fire pokers
get 3rd degree burns
and die a hideously painful death
while being slowly carved up with rusty steak knives
so they can get tetanus on the way to their demise
2/10/08
fucking fire alarm went off again this morning
i guess there was a sulphur like smell down in 2 south
there were some cops talking to those guys when we came back
fucking went off at 4`30
bastards
if i wasn't already awake, i'd have been pissed
one of the guys across the hall from me is getting lucky
dunno which one it is
but that girl is loud
i guess there was a sulphur like smell down in 2 south
there were some cops talking to those guys when we came back
fucking went off at 4`30
bastards
if i wasn't already awake, i'd have been pissed
one of the guys across the hall from me is getting lucky
dunno which one it is
but that girl is loud
2/7/08
švidryhajła
god, today was longer than hell
i actually did go to geography today
since i had a quiz
i've now established an average of 70 on these quizzes
not good, not good
after i finished said quiz
i went to the gallery
where i stayed for an astounding three hours [10-1]
i know, i know, i have no life
but i did meet someone today
some guy sat down in the booth i did since it was crowded
eventually we started talking
i actually had a decent conversation with a complete stranger
and he did actually have a name [kevin]
i haven't had a random act of extroversion in a long time
it was kinda nice
after some calculation
i spent 9.5 hours in the caf today
out of 18 .5 hours of consciousness
jesus christ
i can only hope writing is cancelled tomorrow
that class takes away my will to live
and its my first class of the day
please let her be frozen into her house again
i actually did go to geography today
since i had a quiz
i've now established an average of 70 on these quizzes
not good, not good
after i finished said quiz
i went to the gallery
where i stayed for an astounding three hours [10-1]
i know, i know, i have no life
but i did meet someone today
some guy sat down in the booth i did since it was crowded
eventually we started talking
i actually had a decent conversation with a complete stranger
and he did actually have a name [kevin]
i haven't had a random act of extroversion in a long time
it was kinda nice
after some calculation
i spent 9.5 hours in the caf today
out of 18 .5 hours of consciousness
jesus christ
i can only hope writing is cancelled tomorrow
that class takes away my will to live
and its my first class of the day
please let her be frozen into her house again
2/6/08
gediminaičiai
'i has teh tired lolz'
i actually said that today
i think i finally dove headlong off the crazy cliff
speaking of crazy
of my 69 posts [heh, heh, 69, heh heh, ok i'm done]
only 26 of them have been during double digit hours
[meaning 10am-midnight]
damn
also speaking of my misanthropy
people keep bitching about stereo in the dishroom
people in snyder keep bitching its too loud
my solution?
shut your damn windows
and crank your own music
not our fault we can't hear it over the dish machine
quit your whining ya damn pansies
christ
i actually said that today
i think i finally dove headlong off the crazy cliff
speaking of crazy
of my 69 posts [heh, heh, 69, heh heh, ok i'm done]
only 26 of them have been during double digit hours
[meaning 10am-midnight]
damn
also speaking of my misanthropy
people keep bitching about stereo in the dishroom
people in snyder keep bitching its too loud
my solution?
shut your damn windows
and crank your own music
not our fault we can't hear it over the dish machine
quit your whining ya damn pansies
christ
2/5/08
jogailaičiai
its actually above freezing right now
i feel really stupid trying to explain why i don't get enough sleep
because it sounds stupid when i do
and i always get a dumb look when i do
guess i should just stop talking about it
don't have history tomorrow
maybe i'll get something done in that time
...
or maybe i'll just waste time on the internet
whichever
they're close enough
i really did like the weather today
it certainly seemed to match my mood
tomorrow probly will too
not quite sure what i did
but my knee hurts
probly from when i walked into that damn noodle container
damn thing
update
i saw michael jordan in the caf this morning
and we hooked up
and it was HOTTT
the end
i feel really stupid trying to explain why i don't get enough sleep
because it sounds stupid when i do
and i always get a dumb look when i do
guess i should just stop talking about it
don't have history tomorrow
maybe i'll get something done in that time
...
or maybe i'll just waste time on the internet
whichever
they're close enough
i really did like the weather today
it certainly seemed to match my mood
tomorrow probly will too
not quite sure what i did
but my knee hurts
probly from when i walked into that damn noodle container
damn thing
update
i saw michael jordan in the caf this morning
and we hooked up
and it was HOTTT
the end
2/1/08
1/31/08
kasztanka
i really don't have anything to say
nothing to bitch about that hasn't already been bitched about
and nothing particularly original or candid
shit, i don't even have a 'potatoe'
haven't in a long time
and now i'm complaining about a lack of things to complain about
christ
i haven't gone to geography yet this week
monday i was too tired
today it was too fucking windy
didn't feel like going in the cold and semi-dark
oh well, probly didn't miss much
can't imagine i did, anyway
yeah...
i've got nothing
nothing to bitch about that hasn't already been bitched about
and nothing particularly original or candid
shit, i don't even have a 'potatoe'
haven't in a long time
and now i'm complaining about a lack of things to complain about
christ
i haven't gone to geography yet this week
monday i was too tired
today it was too fucking windy
didn't feel like going in the cold and semi-dark
oh well, probly didn't miss much
can't imagine i did, anyway
yeah...
i've got nothing
1/24/08
cærbannog
they say there's a place where dreams have all gone
they never said where, but i think i know
its miles through the night, just over the dawn
on the road that will take me home
i know in my bones i've been here before
the ground feels the same, though the land's been torn
i've a long way to go, the stars tell me so
on this road that will take me home
love waits for me round the bend, leads me endlessly on
surely sorrows shall find their end, and all our troubles will be gone
and i'll know what i've lost, and all that i've won
when the road finally takes me home
and when i pass by, don't lead me astray
don't try to stop me, don't stand in my way
i'm bound for the hills, where cool waters flow
on this road that will take me home
love waits for me round the bend, leads me endlessly on
surely sorrows shall find their end, and all our troubles will be gone
and we'll know what we've lost, and all that we've won
when this road finally takes me home
i'm going home
i'm going home
they never said where, but i think i know
its miles through the night, just over the dawn
on the road that will take me home
i know in my bones i've been here before
the ground feels the same, though the land's been torn
i've a long way to go, the stars tell me so
on this road that will take me home
love waits for me round the bend, leads me endlessly on
surely sorrows shall find their end, and all our troubles will be gone
and i'll know what i've lost, and all that i've won
when the road finally takes me home
and when i pass by, don't lead me astray
don't try to stop me, don't stand in my way
i'm bound for the hills, where cool waters flow
on this road that will take me home
love waits for me round the bend, leads me endlessly on
surely sorrows shall find their end, and all our troubles will be gone
and we'll know what we've lost, and all that we've won
when this road finally takes me home
i'm going home
i'm going home
1/21/08
noctambulism
yeah, get over it
i made my display name over fancy foreign characters
you'll live
unfortunately, its 4 am
so in about/less than half an hour
it'll be right about the time i went to bed last night
i try to keep it varied
cuz once a pattern tries to set in
its stuck
for a goddamn long time
i'm sure that in a scant few hours or so
that somewhere, mr peter will be very happy
he loves martin luther king jr day
says he always has
i liked seeing the appreciation he had for him
the respect, the ideal to follow his example
pretty sad since hardly he taught ever came close to feeling that
through no fault [detectable, at least] of his own
its snowing again
for damn near the eighth time today
i just wish it would stop
i don't even have a reason to wish that
i have no problem with the snow or the cold
i just desperately wish it would stop
guess the neuroses are finally kicking in
they're eleven days late
i made my display name over fancy foreign characters
you'll live
unfortunately, its 4 am
so in about/less than half an hour
it'll be right about the time i went to bed last night
i try to keep it varied
cuz once a pattern tries to set in
its stuck
for a goddamn long time
i'm sure that in a scant few hours or so
that somewhere, mr peter will be very happy
he loves martin luther king jr day
says he always has
i liked seeing the appreciation he had for him
the respect, the ideal to follow his example
pretty sad since hardly he taught ever came close to feeling that
through no fault [detectable, at least] of his own
its snowing again
for damn near the eighth time today
i just wish it would stop
i don't even have a reason to wish that
i have no problem with the snow or the cold
i just desperately wish it would stop
guess the neuroses are finally kicking in
they're eleven days late
1/18/08
1/16/08
jem'hadar
fucking work schedule
there are so many open shifts that need to be taken
and no one wants them
bitches and hoes, man
hopefully i'll be semi-rested by the time 8 rolls around
i'd rather not do the head bob again in geography
but i'll be damn if andresen isn't boring as hell
the class is somewhat interesting
but shit, his delivery is awful
i apparently didn't miss anything in russian either
except genitive case
which will be reviewed until the end of time
so no worries
i really need to try and curb my insomnia
see if there's something i can do to abate it
cuz its fucking with my head again
and i really hate that
and i don't need it, either
alright, i'm done
there are so many open shifts that need to be taken
and no one wants them
bitches and hoes, man
hopefully i'll be semi-rested by the time 8 rolls around
i'd rather not do the head bob again in geography
but i'll be damn if andresen isn't boring as hell
the class is somewhat interesting
but shit, his delivery is awful
i apparently didn't miss anything in russian either
except genitive case
which will be reviewed until the end of time
so no worries
i really need to try and curb my insomnia
see if there's something i can do to abate it
cuz its fucking with my head again
and i really hate that
and i don't need it, either
alright, i'm done
1/14/08
krakozha
man do i miss sleeping in
fucking 8`00 wake time
i'm not in high school anymore, damn it
even though that was more 7`00
but i digress
i certainly made up for it friday and saturday
woke at 2 pm and 2`45 pm, respectively
speaking of friday
i had mongolian w/ the bitterest girl in the world, the birthday bitch, and her slave
[emily, allison, and mike]
it was pretty good
and i'll be damned
if our waiter wasn't damn good looking
i almost couldn't help but stare
beautiful boy, just beautiful
i ended up going to work on saturday
even though i wasn't scheduled
i need the scratch, so i figured why not
and i saved decinces from a cruel fate
almost one worse than death
i think i'm done
before the clichés take over my fucking brain
fucking 8`00 wake time
i'm not in high school anymore, damn it
even though that was more 7`00
but i digress
i certainly made up for it friday and saturday
woke at 2 pm and 2`45 pm, respectively
speaking of friday
i had mongolian w/ the bitterest girl in the world, the birthday bitch, and her slave
[emily, allison, and mike]
it was pretty good
and i'll be damned
if our waiter wasn't damn good looking
i almost couldn't help but stare
beautiful boy, just beautiful
i ended up going to work on saturday
even though i wasn't scheduled
i need the scratch, so i figured why not
and i saved decinces from a cruel fate
almost one worse than death
i think i'm done
before the clichés take over my fucking brain
1/6/08
connecticutter
after a hiatus of three and a half years
i finally went back to connecticut
damn did it feel good
i missed so much about it
the cool breeze off the ocean
the smell of low tide
the people [most of them]
the sights [downtown new london, mystic, etc]
my friends kinda laughed at me about it
but trust me
after spending four and a half years in a place like flint
anything seems like paradise
i did only get to spend two weeks there
but it was two weeks well spent
except for
-my filling coming loose [upper left hand side], and
-a tooth getting extracted [lower right hand side]
those both sucked, and kept me inside for a few days
but whatever
and yeah, i did drive
its about 850 miles one way
i stayed over in state college, pa both times
its a nice town, you should go
and, this is what i returned home to
-95 fucking application requests on facebook
-issues with my insurance covering my extraction
-a problem with my msu enrollment
i shouldve just stayed out there
i finally went back to connecticut
damn did it feel good
i missed so much about it
the cool breeze off the ocean
the smell of low tide
the people [most of them]
the sights [downtown new london, mystic, etc]
my friends kinda laughed at me about it
but trust me
after spending four and a half years in a place like flint
anything seems like paradise
i did only get to spend two weeks there
but it was two weeks well spent
except for
-my filling coming loose [upper left hand side], and
-a tooth getting extracted [lower right hand side]
those both sucked, and kept me inside for a few days
but whatever
and yeah, i did drive
its about 850 miles one way
i stayed over in state college, pa both times
its a nice town, you should go
and, this is what i returned home to
-95 fucking application requests on facebook
-issues with my insurance covering my extraction
-a problem with my msu enrollment
i shouldve just stayed out there
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