symfonieën

i can't disguise i was hypnotized
lost a track, struggled back
i wanted easy stuff to please me
something in the dark began to squeeze me
seen it, there, there in the mirror
totally focused, no hocus–pocus
dare i give in to this thing gripping my skin
to win, thinking how to add

i lie down in the dust just under your eye
a scrap of paper, thin as vapor
filling my clothes like smoke
a couple of the wires in my heart are broke
i throw, i miss, something, nothing
dreams schemes, moments wasted
a taste i tasted, fate i'm fated
re–edited again then copy, pasted

when i wanna quit, i suffocate it
chew bubblicious, stress repetitious
vicious, i'm one outside you
up above the streets on the dc wire
higher, fire in my guts
in a rut, but what i've got
is in no can, no other human
but i do get lonely scared i'm phoney
as

the lights of the cars go by in a stream
seems like i stand pretty much unseen
but i open my eyes and beams come out

gimme, gimme symphonies
gimme more than the life i see
score rise up, angels play
and my loneliness gets blown away
gimme, gimme symphonies
gimme more than the life i see