ch'iyara

whatsoever i've feared has come to live
and whatsoever i've fought off became my life
just when everyday seemed to greet me with a smile
sunspots have faded and  now i'm doing time
now i'm doing time

whomsoever i've cured, i've sickened now
and whomsoever i've cradled, i've put you down
i'm a searchlight soul, they say but i can't see it in the night
i'm only faking when i get it right
when i get it right

and what you wanted to see good has made you blind
and what you wanted to be youds has made it mine
so don't you lock up something that you wanted to see fly
hands are for shaking, no not tying
no, not tying

cuz i fell on black days
how would i know that this could be my fate?

i sure don't mind a change