recitar! mentre preso dal delirio
non so più quel che dico
e quel che faccio!
eppur è d'uopo, sforzati
bah! sei tu forse un uom?
tu se' pagliaccio!

vesti la giubba
e la faccia infarina
la gente paga, e rider vuole qua
e se arlecchin t'invola colombina
ridi, pagliaccio, e ognun applaudirà!
tramuta in lazzi lo spasmo ed it pianto
in una smorfia in singhiozzo e 'l dolor, ah!

ridi, pagliaccio,
sul tuo amore infranto!
ridi del duol, che t'avvelena il cor!


o mio babbino caro
mi piace è bello, bello
vo' andare in porta rossa
a comperar l'anello!

sì, sì, ci voglio andare!
e se l'amassi indarno
andrei sul ponte vecchio
ma per buttarmi in arno!

mi struggo e mi tormento!
o dio, vorrei morir!
babbo, pietà, pietà!
babbo, pietà, pietà!



i'm surprised today didn't turn out terribly
must've been the zombies with nick and carter
i truly think it's not possible for me to be depressed around them
they're too...real, i guess is the word
they enjoy their lives, they have fun
and we all just get along
i should probly do that more often, i feel like i'm abandoning them

speaking of abandonment
i'm giving up hope of getting any honors options done this semester
i just have too much shit to do another project
i mean, christ, i have more time than this to kill myself academically
why not wait till i'm further along
also, i'd really like to stay in the honors college
here's hoping my grades don't suck this semester

i wish i knew why i've been constantly hungry this week
my stomach's been growling even after i've eaten
perhaps my body is physiologically shutting itself down
or maybe i'm just fucked up, who knows

i would love to have this weekend off from everything
but no, 'responsibilities' i have beg otherwise
bullshit nonsense
next weekend will be appreciated
though i don't know whether i'll like it or not



we get some rules to follow
that and this, these and those
no one knows

we get these pills to swallow
how they stick in your throat
tastes like gold

a gift that you give to me
no one knows

i journey through the desert
of the mind, with no hope
i follow

i drift along the ocean
dead lifeboats in the sun
i come undone

pleasantly caving in
i come undone

and i realize you're mine
indeed, a fool am i
and i realize you're mine
indeed, a fool am i

heaven smiles above me
with a gift there below
but no one knows

a gift that you give to me
no one knows



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